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I never wanted to fall from the top of the world but here I am. |
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And now I am tired and ******* ugly and I hate it but it's all I can be. |
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Locked up, ****** up but I know I'm not the only one. |
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I hear that life goes on, but I guess just not for everyone. |
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Consumed by bliss that now all I do is miss. |
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The memories can make me happy but now I'm ******* pissed! |
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Hopeless. |
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Irrationally searching every single dimension to find a way to bring me closer to you. |
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It's night like these when my jaw is being pried off the sides of my face and it feels as if somehow I swallowed a ******* shoe. |
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I want to tear out my throat so just for a minute I might be able to finally breathe. |
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What has happened to me? |
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Not a day goes by when I didn't wish I were still living in September 2005. |
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I never wanted to live this way or to feel this pain. |
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And I can't stop asking why. |
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Now I see that life is just a game. |
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Sometimes everyday with out you, is another day I wish I didn't have to go through. |
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It still hits me like a brick everyday and it will never go away. |
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I never wanted you to go away. |
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I hang my head deep into my chest, tormented to realize that for now this is the best. |
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I want my life back, I want your life back more than anything. |
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I never wanted to fall from the top of the world but here I am, and to some degree I always feel like *******t because your...Gone, forever. |
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Gone, taken from me. |
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Gone, ******* ******* ******* ******* ******* ******* *******. |
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I used to think depression had nothing to do with me. |
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Now every day of my life I'm faced with despair and misery. |
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Because some dumb ******* asshole made some bad choices, and he landed on you, and we all pay the price...Now I know the meaning of being alone. |