| at a standstill between long-distance jealousy | |
| and unattended phrases omitted from speech, | |
| I can create illusions of self-sufficiency | |
| and convince myself of it when in reality, | |
| I'll let you in and make you feel at home. | |
| you'll never get me alone because I'm always alone, | |
| but you can call me anytime if you want to. | |
| we get comfortable with each other's mouths | |
| so when coffee starts to taste like bad blood, | |
| we'll switch to water | |
| though my cup is already shattered | |
| and can't contain what history books said | |
| I should "need," or "desire." | |
| I never knew what that was. | |
| I'm exhausting myself and you're falling asleep | |
| we can settle for uncomfort if you want to. |