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I... |
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I feel like a mouth facilitating the language |
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constructed by the mind of depression |
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A vocal confirmation that I have diluted my ambition |
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to accommodate my aggression |
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Watered down prayer requests to a sky painted blue, |
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like the ocean of my heart |
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Settled for what I detest to a lie that the truth kept us apart |
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With a sea between hope and me, |
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I lack the ability to figure out where to start |
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Letting fear sit in the drivers seat to a hearse |
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to comfort me as I drive back to insanity |
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Disconnected from the discontent strategies |
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de-straddled the child inside of me |
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Feeding greens to the the malnourished spirit I identified myself as |
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A heart of glass, fragile enough to break, |
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but once put on display, it doesn't hurt so bad |
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Cause moments, I felt sick. I felt poisoned. |
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But other moments, I was asleep... |
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It was a day I felt chosen, but through self torment; |
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I was knee deep in a sinking sand called grief |
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Feeling let down by my poor decisions, |
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I felt in eternity without you, was one not worth living? |
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I hope to someday have the faith |
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to believe in God as much as he believes in me |
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I hope to someday have the faith to believe in God |
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as much as he believes in me... |
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After years of feeling inadequate to the bars |
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set by those superior to me, |
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I found strength, but not in the place I was looking |
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Investing monetary value into the half-truth |
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of the pharmaceuticals being quiet, a ghost |
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I finally became accepting of myself as part of the solution, |
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no more of that pointless appointment booking |
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I surrendered control to the heart inside of me |
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and let my passion drive until I was done completely |
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Done completely out of the hole, gained back control, |
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saved from the cold, feeling back home |
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Or maybe feeling home for the first time |
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Because for the first time in a long time, I felt alive. |
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I felt the ability to strive |
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I felt like there were odds stacked for me, |
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and love was on my side |
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Everybody has the strength to do great things |
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as long as we don't compromise for a world of things |
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Darling, you deserve so much more than what this world has given you; |
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I promise it's true |
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And if you see through it, you can do anything, |
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anything you set your heart to |
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I've been at the lowest point beyond anything I ever did foresee |
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And with the power of love and ambition, |
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I found myself back into a place of peace |
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And you are deserving of authenticity |
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and legitimacy and the riveting awakening |
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that can only be found through the love |
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and defeat of a beautiful king |
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No tyranny, no family holding you together as the wounds heal |
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You are deserving of so much more than what this world has offered. |
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You are deserving of so much more than what this world has offered... |
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You deserve the love of a beautiful king... |