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I've been at odd's with a restless soul |
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I've felt the pain whenI lost control |
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I said the words but could not explain |
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The hurt fades but the scars remain |
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Got myself into situations |
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Ignored the threats and ministrations |
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Guilt choked by my last breath |
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I scared myself to death |
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So take my tears take all my ****ing pain |
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I hope you're entertained |
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I fell prey to my own theatrics |
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Been diagnosed by the psychiatrics |
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Mistakes that i have made |
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I've left myself betrayed |
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I've lied to those i love |
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I'd medicate but there's never enough |
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No tears for the lives I've wrecked |
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I've lost my self respect |
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And now I'm reaching back |
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And I'm trying to make things right |
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And through my past I've gained a deeper sight |
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I'm less than proud of what I've done |
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But I know I've got to change |
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Somehow I know it's only just begun |
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Begun to change it's all on me |
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There's no one else to take the blame |
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But I'm still caught up in this game |
