I've been at odd's with a restless soul 
I've felt the pain whenI lost control 
I said the words but could not explain 
The hurt fades but the scars remain 
Got myself into situations 
Ignored the threats and ministrations 
Guilt choked by my last breath 
I scared myself to death 
So take my tears take all my ****ing pain 
I hope you're entertained 
I fell prey to my own theatrics 
Been diagnosed by the psychiatrics 
Mistakes that i have made 
I've left myself betrayed 
I've lied to those i love 
I'd medicate but there's never enough 
No tears for the lives I've wrecked 
I've lost my self respect 
And now I'm reaching back 
And I'm trying to make things right 
And through my past I've gained a deeper sight 
I'm less than proud of what I've done 
But I know I've got to change 
Somehow I know it's only just begun 
Begun to change it's all on me 
There's no one else to take the blame 
But I'm still caught up in this game