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To think of my task is chilling. |
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To know i was carefully building the mask i was wearing for two years, swearing i'd tear it off. |
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I've sat in the dark explaining to myself that i'm straining too hard for feelings i ought to find easily. |
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Called myself jezebel. |
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I don't believe. |
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Before i say that the vows we made weigh like a stone in my heart. |
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Family is family, don't let this tear us apart. |
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You lie there, an innocent baby. |
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I feel like the thief who is raiding your home, entering and breaking and taking in every room. |
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I know your feelings are tender and that inside you the embers still glow. |
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But i'm a shadow, i'm only a bed of blackened coal. |
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Call myself jezebel for wanting to leave. |
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I'm not saying i'm replacing love for some other word to describe the sacred tie that bound me to you. |
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I'm just saying we've mistaken one for thousands of words. |
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And for that mistake, i've caused you such pain that i damn that word. |
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I've no more ways to hide that i'm a desolate and empty, hollow place inside. |
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I'm not saying i'm replacing love for some other word to describe the sacred tie that bound me to you. |
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I'm not saying love's a plaything. |
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No, it's a powerful word, inspired by strong desire to bind myself to you. |
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How i wish that we never had tried to be man and his wife, to weave our lives into a blindfold over both our eyes. |
