[00:01.09] | 没有听见房东家的狗的声音。现在园子里非常静。那棵不知名的五瓣的白色小花仍然寂寞地开着。阳光照在松枝和盆中的花树上,给那些绿叶涂上金黄色。天是晴朗的,我不用抬起眼睛就知道头上是晴空万里。 |
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[00:53.81] | 忽然我听见洋铁瓦沟上有铃子响声,抬起头,看见两只松鼠正从瓦上溜下来,这两只小生物在松枝上互相追逐取乐。它们的绒线球似的大尾巴,它们的可爱的小黑眼睛,它们颈项上的小铃子吸引了我的注意。我索性不转睛地望着窗外。但是它们跑了两三转,又从藤萝架回到屋瓦上,一瞬间就消失了,依旧把这个静寂的园子留给我。 |
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[01:48.46] | 我刚刚埋下头,又听见小鸟的叫声。我再看,桂树枝上立着一只青灰色的白头小鸟,昂起头得意地歌唱。屋顶的电灯线上,还有一对麻雀在吱吱喳喳地讲话。 |
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[02:17.77] | 我不了解这样的语言。但是我在鸟声里听出了一种安闲的快乐。它们要告诉我的一定是它们的喜悦的感情。可惜我不能回答它们。我把手一挥,它们就飞走了。我的话不能使它们留住,它们留给我一个园子的静寂。不过我知道它们过一阵又会回来的。 |
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[03:01.05] | 现在我觉得我是这个园子里唯一的生物了。我坐在书桌前俯下头写字,没有一点声音来打扰我。我正可以把整个心放在纸上。但是我渐渐地烦躁起来。这静寂像一只手慢慢地挨近我的咽喉。我感到呼吸不畅快了。这是不自然的静寂。这是一种灾祸的预兆,就像暴雨到来前那种沉闷静止的空气一样。 |
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[03:54.57] | 我似乎在等待什么东西。我有一种不安定的感觉,我不能够静下心来。我一定是在等待什么东西。我在等待空袭警报;或者我在等待房东家的狗吠声,这就是说,预行警报已经解除,不会有空袭警报响起来,我用不着准备听见凄厉的汽笛声(空袭警报)就锁门出去。近半月来晴天有警报差不多成了常例。 |
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[04:41.02] | 可是我的等待并没有结果。小鸟回来后又走了;松鼠们也来过一次,但又追逐地跑上屋顶,我不知道它们消失在什么地方。从我看不见的正面楼房屋顶上送过来一阵的乌鸦叫。这些小生物不知道人间的事情,它们不会带给我什么信息。 |
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[05:17.98] | 我写到上面的一段,空袭警报就响了。我的等待果然没有落空。这时我觉得空气在动了。我听见巷外大街上汽车的叫声。我又听见飞机的发动机声,这大概是民航机飞出去躲警报。有时我们的驱逐机也会在这种时候排队飞出,等着攻击敌机。我不能再写了,便拿了一本书锁上园门,匆匆地走到外面去。 |
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[06:07.96] | 在城门口经过一阵可怕的拥挤后,我终于到了郊外。在那里耽搁了两个多钟头,和几个朋友在一起,还在草地上吃了他们带出去的午餐。警报解除后,我回来,打开锁,推开园门,迎面扑来的仍然是一个园子的静寂。 |
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[06:42.16] | 我回到房间,回到书桌前面,打开玻璃窗,在继续执笔前还看看窗外。树上,地上,满个园子都是阳光。墙角一丛观音竹微微地在飘动它们的尖叶。一只大苍蝇带着嗡嗡声从开着的窗飞进房来,在我的头上盘旋。一两只乌鸦在我看不见的地方叫。一只黄色小蝴蝶在白色小花间飞舞。忽然一阵奇怪的声音在对面屋瓦上响起来,又是那两只松鼠从高墙沿着洋铁滴水管溜下来。它们跑到那个支持松树的木架上,又跑到架子脚边有假山的水池的石栏杆下,在那里追逐了一回,又沿着木架跑上松枝,隐在松叶后面了。松叶动起来,桂树的小枝也动了,一只绿色小鸟刚刚歇在那上面。 |
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[08:26.92] | 狗的声音还是听不见。我向右侧着身子去看那条没有阳光的窄小过道。房东家的小门紧紧地闭着。这些时候那里就没有一点声音。大概这家人大清早就到城外躲警报去了,现在还不曾回来。他们回来恐怕在太阳落坡的时候。那条肥壮的黄狗一定也跟着他们“疏散”了,否则会有狗抓门的声音送进我的耳里来。 |
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[09:19.09] | 我又坐在窗前写了这许多字。还是只有乌鸦和小鸟的叫声陪伴我。苍蝇的嗡嗡声早已寂灭了。现在在屋角又响起了老鼠啃东西的声音。都是响一回又静一回的,在这个受着轰炸威胁的城市里我感到了寂寞。 |
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[09:59.03] | 然而像一把刀要划破万里晴空似的,嘹亮的机声突然响起来。这是我们自己的飞机。声音多么雄壮,它扫除了这个园子的静寂。我要放下笔到庭院中去看天空,看那些背负着金色阳光在蓝空里闪耀的灰色大蜻蜒。那是多么美丽的景象。 |
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[00:01.09] | mei you ting jian fang dong jia de gou de sheng yin. xian zai yuan zi li fei chang jing. na ke bu zhi ming de wu ban de bai se xiao hua reng ran ji mo di kai zhe. yang guang zhao zai song zhi he pen zhong de hua shu shang, gei nei xie lv ye tu shang jin huang se. tian shi qing lang de, wo bu yong tai qi yan jing jiu zhi dao tou shang shi qing kong wan li. |
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[00:53.81] | hu ran wo ting jian yang tie wa gou shang you ling zi xiang sheng, tai qi tou, kan jian liang zhi song shu zheng cong wa shang liu xia lai, zhe liang zhi xiao sheng wu zai song zhi shang hu xiang zhui zhu qu le. ta men de rong xian qiu shi de da wei ba, ta men de ke ai de xiao hei yan jing, ta men jing xiang shang de xiao ling zi xi yin le wo de zhu yi. wo suo xing bu zhuan jing di wang zhe chuang wai. dan shi ta men pao le liang san zhuan, you cong teng luo jia hui dao wu wa shang, yi shun jian jiu xiao shi le, yi jiu ba zhe ge jing ji de yuan zi liu gei wo. |
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[01:48.46] | wo gang gang mai xia tou, you ting jian xiao niao de jiao sheng. wo zai kan, gui shu zhi shang li zhe yi zhi qing hui se de bai tou xiao niao, ang qi tou de yi di ge chang. wu ding de dian deng xian shang, hai you yi dui ma que zai zhi zhi zha zha di jiang hua. |
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[02:17.77] | wo bu liao jie zhe yang de yu yan. dan shi wo zai niao sheng li ting chu le yi zhong an xian de kuai le. ta men yao gao su wo de yi ding shi ta men de xi yue de gan qing. ke xi wo bu neng hui da ta men. wo ba shou yi hui, ta men jiu fei zou le. wo de hua bu neng shi ta men liu zhu, ta men liu gei wo yi ge yuan zi de jing ji. bu guo wo zhi dao ta men guo yi zhen you hui hui lai de. |
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[03:01.05] | xian zai wo jue de wo shi zhe ge yuan zi li wei yi de sheng wu le. wo zuo zai shu zhuo qian fu xia tou xie zi, mei you yi dian sheng yin lai da rao wo. wo zheng ke yi ba zheng ge xin fang zai zhi shang. dan shi wo jian jian di fan zao qi lai. zhe jing ji xiang yi zhi shou man man di ai jin wo de yan hou. wo gan dao hu xi bu chang kuai le. zhe shi bu zi ran de jing ji. zhe shi yi zhong zai huo de yu zhao, jiu xiang bao yu dao lai qian na zhong chen men jing zhi de kong qi yi yang. |
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[03:54.57] | wo si hu zai deng dai shen me dong xi. wo you yi zhong bu an ding de gan jue, wo bu neng gou jing xia xin lai. wo yi ding shi zai deng dai shen me dong xi. wo zai deng dai kong xi jing bao huo zhe wo zai deng dai fang dong jia de gou fei sheng, zhe jiu shi shuo, yu xing jing bao yi jing jie chu, bu hui you kong xi jing bao xiang qi lai, wo yong bu zhao zhun bei ting jian qi li de qi di sheng kong xi jing bao jiu suo men chu qu. jin ban yue lai qing tian you jing bao cha bu duo cheng le chang li. |
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[04:41.02] | ke shi wo de deng dai bing mei you jie guo. xiao niao hui lai hou you zou le song shu men ye lai guo yi ci, dan you zhui zhu di pao shang wu ding, wo bu zhi dao ta men xiao shi zai shen me di fang. cong wo kan bu jian de zheng mian lou fang wu ding shang song guo lai yi zhen de wu ya jiao. zhei xie xiao sheng wu bu zhi dao ren jian de shi qing, ta men bu hui dai gei wo shen me xin xi. |
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[05:17.98] | wo xie dao shang mian di yi duan, kong xi jing bao jiu xiang le. wo de deng dai guo ran mei you luo kong. zhe shi wo jue de kong qi zai dong le. wo ting jian xiang wai da jie shang qi che de jiao sheng. wo you ting jian fei ji de fa dong ji sheng, zhe da gai shi min hang ji fei chu qu duo jing bao. you shi wo men de qu zhu ji ye hui zai zhe zhong shi hou pai dui fei chu, deng zhe gong ji di ji. wo bu neng zai xie le, bian na le yi ben shu suo shang yuan men, cong cong di zou dao wai mian qu. |
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[06:07.96] | zai cheng men kou jing guo yi zhen ke pa de yong ji hou, wo zhong yu dao le jiao wai. zai na li dan ge le liang ge duo zhong tou, he ji ge peng you zai yi qi, hai zai cao di shang chi le ta men dai chu qu de wu can. jing bao jie chu hou, wo hui lai, da kai suo, tui kai yuan men, ying mian pu lai de reng ran shi yi ge yuan zi de jing ji. |
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[06:42.16] | wo hui dao fang jian, hui dao shu zhuo qian mian, da kai bo li chuang, zai ji xu zhi bi qian hai kan kan chuang wai. shu shang, di shang, man ge yuan zi dou shi yang guang. qiang jiao yi cong guan yin zhu wei wei di zai piao dong ta men de jian ye. yi zhi da cang ying dai zhe weng weng sheng cong kai zhe de chuang fei jin fang lai, zai wo de tou shang pan xuan. yi liang zhi wu ya zai wo kan bu jian de di fang jiao. yi zhi huang se xiao hu die zai bai se xiao hua jian fei wu. hu ran yi zhen qi guai de sheng yin zai dui mian wu wa shang xiang qi lai, you shi na liang zhi song shu cong gao qiang yan zhe yang tie di shui guan liu xia lai. ta men pao dao na ge zhi chi song shu de mu jia shang, you pao dao jia zi jiao bian you jia shan de shui chi de shi lan gan xia, zai na li zhui zhu le yi hui, you yan zhe mu jia pao shang song zhi, yin zai song ye hou mian le. song ye dong qi lai, gui shu de xiao zhi ye dong le, yi zhi lv se xiao niao gang gang xie zai na shang mian. |
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[08:26.92] | gou de sheng yin hai shi ting bu jian. wo xiang you ce zhe shen zi qu kan na tiao mei you yang guang de zhai xiao guo dao. fang dong jia de xiao men jin jin di bi zhe. zhei xie shi hou na li jiu mei you yi dian sheng yin. da gai zhe jia ren da qing zao jiu dao cheng wai duo jing bao qu le, xian zai hai bu ceng hui lai. ta men hui lai kong pa zai tai yang luo po de shi hou. na tiao fei zhuang de huang gou yi ding ye gen zhe ta men" shu san" le, fou ze hui you gou zhua men de sheng yin song jin wo de er li lai. |
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[09:19.09] | wo you zuo zai chuang qian xie le zhe xu duo zi. hai shi zhi you wu ya he xiao niao de jiao sheng pei ban wo. cang ying de weng weng sheng zao yi ji mie le. xian zai zai wu jiao you xiang qi le lao shu ken dong xi de sheng yin. dou shi xiang yi hui you jing yi hui de, zai zhe ge shou zhe hong zha wei xie de cheng shi li wo gan dao le ji mo. |
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[09:59.03] | ran er xiang yi ba dao yao hua po wan li qing kong shi de, liao liang de ji sheng tu ran xiang qi lai. zhe shi wo men zi ji de fei ji. sheng yin duo me xiong zhuang, ta sao chu le zhe ge yuan zi de jing ji. wo yao fang xia bi dao ting yuan zhong qu kan tian kong, kan nei xie bei fu zhe jin se yang guang zai lan kong li shan yao de hui se da qing yan. na shi duo me mei li de jing xiang. |
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[00:01.09] | méi yǒu tīng jiàn fáng dōng jiā de gǒu de shēng yīn. xiàn zài yuán zǐ lǐ fēi cháng jìng. nà kē bù zhī míng de wǔ bàn de bái sè xiǎo huā réng rán jì mò dì kāi zhe. yáng guāng zhào zài sōng zhī hé pén zhōng de huā shù shàng, gěi nèi xiē lǜ yè tú shàng jīn huáng sè. tiān shì qíng lǎng de, wǒ bù yòng tái qǐ yǎn jīng jiù zhī dào tóu shàng shì qíng kōng wàn lǐ. |
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[00:53.81] | hū rán wǒ tīng jiàn yáng tiě wǎ gōu shàng yǒu líng zi xiǎng shēng, tái qǐ tóu, kàn jiàn liǎng zhǐ sōng shǔ zhèng cóng wǎ shàng liū xià lái, zhè liǎng zhǐ xiǎo shēng wù zài sōng zhī shàng hù xiāng zhuī zhú qǔ lè. tā men de róng xiàn qiú shì de dà wěi bā, tā men de kě ài de xiǎo hēi yǎn jīng, tā men jǐng xiàng shàng de xiǎo líng zi xī yǐn le wǒ de zhù yì. wǒ suǒ xìng bù zhuǎn jīng dì wàng zhe chuāng wài. dàn shì tā men pǎo le liǎng sān zhuǎn, yòu cóng téng luó jià huí dào wū wǎ shàng, yī shùn jiān jiù xiāo shī le, yī jiù bǎ zhè gè jìng jì de yuán zǐ liú gěi wǒ. |
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[01:48.46] | wǒ gāng gāng mái xià tou, yòu tīng jiàn xiǎo niǎo de jiào shēng. wǒ zài kàn, guì shù zhī shàng lì zhe yì zhī qīng huī sè de bái tóu xiǎo niǎo, áng qǐ tóu dé yì dì gē chàng. wū dǐng de diàn dēng xiàn shàng, hái yǒu yī duì má què zài zhī zhī zhā zhā dì jiǎng huà. |
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[02:17.77] | wǒ bù liǎo jiě zhè yàng de yǔ yán. dàn shì wǒ zài niǎo shēng lǐ tīng chū le yī zhǒng ān xián de kuài lè. tā men yào gào sù wǒ de yí dìng shì tā men de xǐ yuè de gǎn qíng. kě xī wǒ bù néng huí dá tā men. wǒ bǎ shǒu yī huī, tā men jiù fēi zǒu le. wǒ de huà bù néng shǐ tā men liú zhù, tā men liú gěi wǒ yí gè yuán zǐ de jìng jì. bù guò wǒ zhī dào tā men guò yī zhèn yòu huì huí lái de. |
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[03:01.05] | xiàn zài wǒ jué de wǒ shì zhè gè yuán zǐ lǐ wéi yī de shēng wù le. wǒ zuò zài shū zhuō qián fǔ xià tou xiě zì, méi yǒu yì diǎn shēng yīn lái dǎ rǎo wǒ. wǒ zhèng kě yǐ bǎ zhěng gè xīn fàng zài zhǐ shàng. dàn shì wǒ jiàn jiàn dì fán zào qǐ lái. zhè jìng jì xiàng yì zhī shǒu màn màn dì āi jìn wǒ de yān hóu. wǒ gǎn dào hū xī bù chàng kuài le. zhè shì bù zì rán de jìng jì. zhè shì yī zhǒng zāi huò de yù zhào, jiù xiàng bào yǔ dào lái qián nà zhǒng chén mèn jìng zhǐ de kōng qì yí yàng. |
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[03:54.57] | wǒ sì hū zài děng dài shén me dōng xī. wǒ yǒu yī zhǒng bù ān dìng de gǎn jué, wǒ bù néng gòu jìng xià xīn lái. wǒ yí dìng shì zài děng dài shén me dōng xī. wǒ zài děng dài kōng xí jǐng bào huò zhě wǒ zài děng dài fáng dōng jiā de gǒu fèi shēng, zhè jiù shì shuō, yù xíng jǐng bào yǐ jīng jiě chú, bú huì yǒu kòng xí jǐng bào xiǎng qǐ lái, wǒ yòng bù zháo zhǔn bèi tīng jiàn qī lì de qì dí shēng kōng xí jǐng bào jiù suǒ mén chū qù. jìn bàn yuè lái qíng tiān yǒu jǐng bào chà bù duō chéng le cháng lì. |
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[04:41.02] | kě shì wǒ de děng dài bìng méi yǒu jié guǒ. xiǎo niǎo huí lái hòu yòu zǒu le sōng shǔ men yě lái guò yī cì, dàn yòu zhuī zhú dì pǎo shàng wū dǐng, wǒ bù zhī dào tā men xiāo shī zài shén me dì fang. cóng wǒ kàn bú jiàn de zhèng miàn lóu fáng wū dǐng shàng sòng guò lái yī zhèn de wū yā jiào. zhèi xiē xiǎo shēng wù bù zhī dào rén jiān de shì qíng, tā men bú huì dài gěi wǒ shén me xìn xī. |
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[05:17.98] | wǒ xiě dào shàng miàn dí yī duàn, kōng xí jǐng bào jiù xiǎng le. wǒ de děng dài guǒ rán méi yǒu luò kōng. zhè shí wǒ jué de kōng qì zài dòng le. wǒ tīng jiàn xiàng wài dà jiē shàng qì chē de jiào shēng. wǒ yòu tīng jiàn fēi jī de fā dòng jī shēng, zhè dà gài shì mín háng jī fēi chū qù duǒ jǐng bào. yǒu shí wǒ men de qū zhú jī yě huì zài zhè zhǒng shí hòu pái duì fēi chū, děng zhe gōng jī dí jī. wǒ bù néng zài xiě le, biàn ná le yī běn shū suǒ shàng yuán mén, cōng cōng dì zǒu dào wài miàn qù. |
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[06:07.96] | zài chéng mén kǒu jīng guò yī zhèn kě pà de yōng jǐ hòu, wǒ zhōng yú dào le jiāo wài. zài nà li dān gē le liǎng gè duō zhōng tóu, hé jǐ gè péng yǒu zài yì qǐ, hái zài cǎo dì shàng chī le tā men dài chū qù de wǔ cān. jǐng bào jiě chú hòu, wǒ huí lái, dǎ kāi suǒ, tuī kāi yuán mén, yíng miàn pū lái de réng rán shì yí gè yuán zǐ de jìng jì. |
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[06:42.16] | wǒ huí dào fáng jiān, huí dào shū zhuō qián miàn, dǎ kāi bō lí chuāng, zài jì xù zhí bǐ qián hái kàn kàn chuāng wài. shù shàng, dì shàng, mǎn gè yuán zǐ dōu shì yáng guāng. qiáng jiǎo yī cóng guān yīn zhú wēi wēi dì zài piāo dòng tā men de jiān yè. yì zhī dà cāng yíng dài zhe wēng wēng shēng cóng kāi zhe de chuāng fēi jìn fáng lái, zài wǒ de tóu shàng pán xuán. yī liǎng zhǐ wū yā zài wǒ kàn bú jiàn de dì fāng jiào. yì zhī huáng sè xiǎo hú dié zài bái sè xiǎo huā jiān fēi wǔ. hū rán yī zhèn qí guài de shēng yīn zài duì miàn wū wǎ shàng xiǎng qǐ lái, yòu shì nà liǎng zhǐ sōng shǔ cóng gāo qiáng yán zhe yáng tiě dī shuǐ guǎn liū xià lái. tā men pǎo dào nà gè zhī chí sōng shù de mù jià shàng, yòu pǎo dào jià zi jiǎo biān yǒu jiǎ shān de shuǐ chí de shí lán gān xià, zài nà li zhuī zhú le yī huí, yòu yán zhe mù jià pǎo shàng sōng zhī, yǐn zài sōng yè hòu miàn le. sōng yè dòng qǐ lái, guì shù de xiǎo zhī yě dòng le, yì zhī lǜ sè xiǎo niǎo gāng gāng xiē zài nà shàng miàn. |
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[08:26.92] | gǒu de shēng yīn hái shì tīng bu jiàn. wǒ xiàng yòu cè zhe shēn zi qù kàn nà tiáo méi yǒu yáng guāng de zhǎi xiǎo guò dào. fáng dōng jiā de xiǎo mén jǐn jǐn dì bì zhe. zhèi xiē shí hòu nà lǐ jiù méi yǒu yì diǎn shēng yīn. dà gài zhè jiā rén dà qīng zǎo jiù dào chéng wài duǒ jǐng bào qù le, xiàn zài hái bù céng huí lái. tā men huí lái kǒng pà zài tài yáng luò pō de shí hòu. nà tiáo féi zhuàng de huáng gǒu yí dìng yě gēn zhe tā men" shū sàn" le, fǒu zé huì yǒu gǒu zhuā mén de shēng yīn sòng jìn wǒ de ěr lǐ lái. |
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[09:19.09] | wǒ yòu zuò zài chuāng qián xiě le zhè xǔ duō zì. hái shì zhǐ yǒu wū yā hé xiǎo niǎo de jiào shēng péi bàn wǒ. cāng yíng de wēng wēng shēng zǎo yǐ jì miè le. xiàn zài zài wū jiǎo yòu xiǎng qǐ le lǎo shǔ kěn dōng xī de shēng yīn. dōu shì xiǎng yī huí yòu jìng yī huí de, zài zhè gè shòu zhe hōng zhà wēi xié de chéng shì lǐ wǒ gǎn dào le jì mò. |
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[09:59.03] | rán ér xiàng yī bǎ dāo yào huá pò wàn lǐ qíng kōng shì de, liáo liàng de jī shēng tū rán xiǎng qǐ lái. zhè shì wǒ men zì jǐ de fēi jī. shēng yīn duō me xióng zhuàng, tā sǎo chú le zhè gè yuán zǐ de jìng jì. wǒ yào fàng xià bǐ dào tíng yuàn zhōng qù kàn tiān kōng, kàn nèi xiē bēi fù zhe jīn sè yáng guāng zài lán kōng lǐ shǎn yào de huī sè dà qīng yán. nà shi duō me měi lì de jǐng xiàng. |
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