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Although it's tough, when growing up I was a pretty normal kid |
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I'm old enough to realize that my family had more to give |
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We couldn't afford a lot but I kept on ignoring it |
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And would I make it? my basement is where I'm recording in |
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I'm depending on a dream and if I'd ever score it big |
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They believe on what it seems but I ain't even close to it |
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I'm focusing on what I do, not caring if they notice it |
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I'm composing my life story, all the highs and lows in it |
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My family was doing good, I'm riding bikes around the block |
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But coming home to mom and dad and the fighting never stopped |
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And it already begun, my father was getting drunk |
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Breaking things around the house, telling my mom to pick it up |
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I would be laying on my bed, hearing the yelling through the walls |
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It was small in the beginning now I couldn't take it at all |
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And I'm preparing to fall and why is this happening? |
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Drastically, actually this life was after me |
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I just wanna live a life with no stress |
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Success is just a mile away, I look for better days |
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Even if they hate you, just gotta smile through it all |
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Just be grateful, you just gotta smile through it all |
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I'm doing well so thanks for your help |
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I do it for myself for nobody else |
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And I owe to myself, I just gotta smile through it all |
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Just smile through it all, just smile through it all |
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It was clear, It's been a couple of years since it has been this way |
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I look away but it was the same thing, different day |
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Little things got me in trouble and I would get it bad |
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And I hated you and I ain't sorry, just forget it dad |
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And it's sad having a kid who doesn't like you |
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Dad I would never wanna be just like you |
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You'd beat me with whatever that you can find |
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And with mom, the people knew, it's nothing that you could hide |
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I was only 13 and I would come home a little lately |
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Try to hurt me now, I grew up and I was in your face |
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Looking in your eyes, I decided to take a stand |
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Damn you were surprised, that's when I became a man |
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You told me to try to hit you and I punched you in your mouth |
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And I was out, packed my things and I was running out the house |
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On my own, I thank mom for being my backbone |
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I was gone for a month, you wanted me back home but I'm gone |
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I just wanna live a life with no stress |
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Success is just a mile away, I look for better days |
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Even if they hate you, just gotta smile through it all |
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Just be grateful, you just gotta smile through it all |
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I'm doing well so thanks for your help |
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I do it for myself for nobody else |
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And I owe to myself, I just gotta smile through it all |
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Just smile through it all, just smile through it all |
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Just smile through it all |
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Even if they hate you |
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Look, ain't nobody can replace you |
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Just smile through it all |
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Yeah they can be fake too |
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You got your life, just be grateful |
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Just smile through it all |
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Even if they hate you |
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What they say can't break you |
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Just smile through it all |
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Just be grateful |
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Just smile through it all |
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Just smile through it all |
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You and mom gotta divorce, I was happy hearing the news |
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I didn't know a lot before, now I'm fearing the truth |
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The last day before you went, you came and cried to me |
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And I didn't pay no mind when you said goodbye to me |
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The whole family left you, I wanted to forget you |
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Now I feel a guilt in my stomach and I'm regretful |
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I stopped following rules, I dropped right outta school |
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Hanging with the wrong crowd, I thought that I was cool |
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And when I was 17, I just gave up, I couldn't do it 17 |
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Life was fucked up and my music would help me through it |
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Truth is, I miss the family we once had |
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When we supported each other, something I want back |
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And it's been 5 years since you were once here |
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I wanted to make it clear, your voice I wanna hear |
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I would look at your number and pick the phone up |
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I wanted to let you know, your son has grown up |
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I just wanna live a life with no stress |
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Success is just a mile away, I look for better days |
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Even if they hate you, just gotta smile through it all |
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Just be grateful, you just gotta smile through it all |
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I'm doing well so thanks for your help |
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I do it for myself for nobody else |
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And I owe to myself, I just gotta smile through it all |
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Just smile through it all, just smile through it all |
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It's kinda fucked up, having your whole family leave you |
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We all make mistakes, the same for all people |
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And I was always aware of my surroundings |
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Always getting grounded, didn't care cuz I was childish |
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I went through the same, I feel the pain cuz you were labelled |
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You still played a role putting the food on the table |
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After you left, it was hard to be stable |
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And the man I am now, I admit that I don't hate you dad |
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To be honest if you were here, I would take you back |
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And I hate the fact that I made mom pick a side |
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Forget the pride, sick inside, I ain't proud of what I done |
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The fam was pretty good but I was stupid and I f*cked it up |
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This song I wrote is something for me to show |
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I'm a man now cuz you weren't there to see me grow |
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Something you didn't know and I'm letting out my story |
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Cuz I fucked everything up and I regret it and |
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I'm sorry dad |
