The Me Inside of Me

Song The Me Inside of Me
Artist Kevin Murphy
Artist Laurence O'Keefe
Album Heathers The Musical (World Premiere Cast Recording)

Lyrics

[00:00.22] J.D.
[00:00.32] Think. Long and hard. Conjure her up in your mind. What would she say?
[00:05.80] What is her final statement to a cold, uncaring planet?
[00:11.29] VERONICA
[00:11.33] (Writing) "Dear world...
[00:12.59] Believe it or not, I knew about fear;
[00:14.93] I knew the way loneliness stung.
[00:17.71] I hid behind smiles and crazy hot clothes;
[00:20.45] I learned to kiss boys with my tongue."
[00:22.69] J.D.
[00:22.79] That's good.
[00:23.44] VERONICA
[00:23.54] "But oh, the world, it held me down;
[00:28.67] it weighed like a concrete prom queen crown."
[00:33.45] (Dead Heather Chandler sits up. Only Veronica sees her)
[00:34.00] HEATHER CHANDLER
[00:34.09] No one thinks a pretty girl has feelings.
[00:39.18] No one gets her insecurity.
[00:44.46] I am more than shoulder pads and makeup.
[00:49.78] No one sees the me inside of me.
[00:55.86][Spoken] Jesus, you're making me sound like Air Supply.
[00:59.40] J.D.
[00:59.50] Keep going. This has to be good enough to fool the cops.
[01:02.43] (Two Policemen, McCord and Milner, investigate the crime scene)
[01:09.44] MCCORD
[01:09.54] Whoa! Is it murder?
[01:13.02] MILNER
[01:13.12] No, look. Here's a suicide note.
[01:17.46] VERONICA, HEATHER, COPS
[01:17.51] "They couldn't see past my rockstar mystique,
[01:20.00] They wouldn't dare look in my eyes.
[01:22.79] But just underneath was a terrified girl
[01:25.19] who clings to her pillow and cries!
[01:28.37] My looks were just like prison bars;
[01:34.01] they've left me a myriad of scars."
[01:38.64] HEATHER CHANDLER
[01:38.74] "Myriad." Nice.
[01:39.93] (The COPS hand the suicide note to Principal Gowan)
[01:40.00] VERONICA, HEATHER, COPS
[01:40.07] "No one thinks a pretty girl has substance. That's the curse of popularity."
[01:49.60] (Gowan reads the note aloud)
[01:50.74] PRINCIPAL GOWAN
[01:50.99] "I am more than just a source of handjobs."
[01:55.28] VERONICA, HEATHER, GOWAN, COPS
[01:55.38] "No one sees the me inside of me."
[02:02.46] (The COPS exit. GOWAN joins FLEMING, RIPPER and some FACULTY)
[02:05.91] PRINCIPAL GOWAN
[02:06.06][Spoken] Heather Chandler is not your everyday suicide.
[02:08.46] COACH RIPPER
[02:08.66] You should cancel classes.
[02:10.10] PRINCIPAL GOWAN
[02:10.32] No way, Coach.
[02:11.36] I send the kids home before lunch and the switchboard'll light up like a Christmas tree.
[02:15.29] MS. FLEMING
[02:15.44] Out children are dying.
[02:18.18] I suggest we get everyone into the cafeteria and just talk. And feel. Together.
[02:23.86] PRINCIPAL GOWAN
[02:23.91] Thank you, Ms. Fleming. Call me when the shuttle lands.
[02:28.75] MS. FLEMING
[02:28.80] I'm telling you we all misjudged Heather Chandler.
[02:32.33] This is the loveliest suicide not I've ever read.
[02:36.02] MS. FLEMING & HEATHER CHANDLER
[02:36.22] "Box up my clothing for Goodwill,
[02:37.96] and give the poor my Nordic Track.
[02:39.81] Donate my car to crippled kids,
[02:41.96] or to those ghetto moms on crack.
[02:43.95] Give them my hats and my CDs,
[02:46.10] my pumps and my flats, my three TVs!"
[02:50.84] "No one thinks a pretty girl has feelings;
[02:55.47] but I weep for all I failed to be.
[03:00.16] Maybe I can help the world by leaving;
[03:04.64] Maybe that the me inside of me."
[03:12.26] PRINCIPAL GOWAN
[03:12.42] Aw, hell. Long weekend for everybody!
[03:15.12] (Teachers cheer, as do arriving students)
[03:17.46] MS. FLEMING
[03:17.68] Not so fast, kids. They're refueling the buses, which gives us a solid half-hour of healing.
[03:24.50] I've mimeographed copies of the suicide note so you can feel Heather's anguish.
[03:30.97] HEATHER MCNAMARA
[03:31.22] I never knew about her pain.
[03:33.77] Go on!
[03:34.00] HIPSTER DORK
[03:34.3] Her life had hit a rocky patch.
[03:36.52] Feel!
[03:37.00] YOUNG REPUBLICANETTE
[03:37.10] She didn't mean to be such a snatch!
[03:39.10] Heal!
[03:39.68] She didn't mean to be such a snatch!
[03:42.22] MS. FLEMING
[03:42.26] Veronica, you're very quiet. What's on your mind.
[03:46.27] VERONICA
[03:46.37] Uh, maybe Heather realized that in order to be happy she had to give up her power.
[03:54.00] And the only way to do that was... death.
[03:58.08] MS. FLEMING
[03:58.18] My God.
[03:59.92] Look what we've done.
[04:00.88] We're breaking through!
[04:01.97] Heather would be so proud of you!
[04:04.01] And you! And you! And you! And you!
[04:07.41] No one thinks a pretty girl can touch you...
[04:11.40] NEW WAVE GIRL
[04:11.51] Heather touching me...
[04:13.05] But she's made us better than we were.
[04:17.33] Heather's dead, but she will live inside me, and I'll be the me inside of her...
[04:25.40] HEATHER CHANDLER
[04:25.51] Holy crap! This is awesome!
[04:29.00] Heather cried, our sins fell on her shoulders!
[04:32.20] HEATHER CHANDLER
[04:32.30] Jesus Christ!
[04:33.75] Heather died, so we could all be free!
[04:36.44] HEATHER CHANDLER
[04:36.54] I'm bigger than John Lennon!
[04:37.59] Heather's gone, but she will live forever!
[04:41.73] She's the dove that sings outside my window!
[04:45.62] She's the twin from whom
[04:46.96] I'm separated!
[04:48.52] She's the horse I never got for Christmas!
[04:51.67] Heather sees the me inside of me!
[04:58.20] Heather is the me inside of me!
[05:04.05] Inside of... me!