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[ti:Car Crash] |
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[ar:Hotel Books] |
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[al:] |
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It was problematic at best to perceive existence with a myopic lens I embedded into myself |
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My lack of gestures limited the effectiveness of my delivery and all she begged for was deliverance |
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Just soft, eloquent passages that provided closure. Not answers, just closure |
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And I somehow fashioned together an array of broken glass that looked enough like a vase that it would pass |
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And she would find a way to keep her roses watered and alive again, when deep down I was broken |
| [00:28.80] |
Prized among the lacklustre thieves immune to pain but pain by immunity |
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She beckoned me and she lessened me because no other love would accommodate my blind fold so easily |
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And I was afraid of change, but I was afraid of not changing |
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I was afraid of change, but I was afraid of not changing |
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Then a quick flood of blood infecting my brain, dashboard you, dashboard blank slate |
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My narrow lens no longer mattered, no longer weighed in and neither did your fear, or your insecurities, or your smile |
| [01:06.63] |
Because in three seconds fate circumvented a concrete divider, followed by seven seconds of nervous prayer, nervous cursing, nervous something |
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As poisonous as the snake it came from the oppression presented on my God forsaken lies limited it even more |
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Followed by seven seconds of promising myself if I survived I would stop bargaining I would stop pushing off effort in exchange for more time, I would stop neglecting civil spiritual and personal duties or promises, which ever it may be, neither seemed likely at that point |
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Followed by two seconds, the longest two seconds I've ever experienced of lying to myself, lying to my God and lying to you |
| [01:44.31] |
The words "I love you" seemed so broken and so inaccurate and the words "I promise" seem so trite and so distant. |
| [01:50.58] |
But so foolish a passenger caught up in this accident, nothing mattered beyond the fact that I was damaged and I was hurting physically |
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Yet somehow I found the strength to thank my God I was a survivor and that's when I heard the fate of the driver |
| [02:04.86] |
Three seconds later, closure, not answers. Just closure. |
| [02:09.19] |
Lost in the wreckage as a soul ascended, I love you |
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Lost in the wreckage as a soul ascended, I love you |
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And every day I wish we could trade places; because you were the first person that loved me in any real way, and now I stand six feet above where you lay |
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And if I get one thing right in this life I pray that it'll be sharing love with everybody, the same love that you shared with me. |
| [02:57.32] |
You call me down here and I hear your voice and the sound of my heart breaking and I pray to god you're still awake |
| [03:29.74] |
And I taught myself how to forget that sometimes life will try to convince you there's a such thing as regret |
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But I found it to be a lie, the same lie I found when I looked in your eyes after it was said and done |
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Scream hallelujah until you come alive, the devil came for our lungs but he left with our love |
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Scream hallelujah until you come alive, I inhaled this world for so long that I tore out my lungs |
