Dreaming Or Sinking

Song Dreaming Or Sinking
Artist Hotel Books
Album I'm Almost Happy Here, But I Never Feel At Home

Lyrics

[ti:Dreaming Or Sinking]
[ar:Hotel Books]
[al:]
[00:23.60] I tried looking into her eyes to make sense of my own life,
[00:27.04] But found senseless realisations, I was reckless and she was justification;
[00:31.52] A vacation from the monotony I lived in.
[00:34.40] And avoiding risk felt nice until I realized, I was avoiding purpose.
[00:39.28] And it’s all new but I love her,
[00:40.83] At least I think because I don’t want to live so empty.
[00:45.41] And I have this tendency to complicate things better than I break things and she was somehow caught in the in between.
[00:51.64] And forever means forever and that’s what it will always mean.
[00:54.53] And life is a reality except for when it’s a dream.
[00:57.46] And those are the moments that I can’t seem to think,
[01:00.10] But I make sense of my mess by making sense of her and me.
[01:03.43] And this fear keeps me alive,
[01:05.28] This fear of knowing that she could leave me.
[01:08.06] And I could try.
[01:10.00] But this fear fuels the flames,
[01:11.75] That’s why I feel like I’m going to die.
[01:14.23] Cause she kept a part of me close by and I liked it the best I can.
[01:18.61] And now that I know who I used to be it’s hard to be happy with who I am.
[01:22.35] And that’s where she came in.
[01:24.15] A half-baked smile and a love to pretend,
[01:26.54] But prior to then, love was nothing more to me than a vacation,
[01:30.27] A vacant motivation,
[01:31.07] To avoid the means it takes to reach any real end.
[01:34.65] A sense of salvation,
[01:36.29] But also an element of bitter hope,
[01:37.93] To cope with the rope that was tied around my neck.
[01:42.61] And the saviour I hoped for was chased away,
[01:45.00] Way back then,
[01:45.85] When I found vices to take the place of all the things I wanted to be.
[01:51.08] And I lost sight of me,
[01:52.72] But I was told I could be anybody.
[01:54.47] And I thought I could find purpose in loving someone who looks like me
[01:58.80] And I began dreaming or sinking,
[02:00.49] Most nights they meant the same thing.
[02:02.03] And when that salvation finally found me,
[02:04.93]] It was traded away for thirty pieces of silver.
[02:07.12] Seems like that’s not too much I guess but I sold my saviour for a whole lot less.
[02:10.95] My two best friends,
[02:12.64] Acceptance and a mirage of fake happiness.
[02:15.43] And now the words I use to cling to as my refuge,
[02:18.41] Now torture me in my head.
[02:20.05] Forgive them father they know not what they do,
[02:22.24] It’s funny cause it seems like I did every time I lied to you.
[02:26.32] And that’s my only truth,
[02:28.41] That I can’t sleep at night
[02:29.65] And I can’t get these things right,
[02:31.25] And salvation escaped when she came into view.
[02:34.13] And now I’m hoping my whole life isn’t mistaken as you,
[02:37.86] But there’s no way of knowing,
[02:39.71] When all I’m doing is coping.
[02:42.49] With my own pride.
[02:46.28] And my past would fight with me hoping I would find truth,
[02:49.52] But it’s never a good idea to start a fight with a man who has nothing to lose,
[02:55.24] And I’m empty.
[02:56.98] My heart is caving in.
[03:00.62] And for whatever reason,
[03:03.80] I finally let somebody in.
[03:07.44] And I don’t know what love is.
[03:09.43] But I’m growing.

Pinyin

ti: Dreaming Or Sinking
ar: Hotel Books
al:
[00:23.60] I tried looking into her eyes to make sense of my own life,
[00:27.04] But found senseless realisations, I was reckless and she was justification
[00:31.52] A vacation from the monotony I lived in.
[00:34.40] And avoiding risk felt nice until I realized, I was avoiding purpose.
[00:39.28] And it' s all new but I love her,
[00:40.83] At least I think because I don' t want to live so empty.
[00:45.41] And I have this tendency to complicate things better than I break things and she was somehow caught in the in between.
[00:51.64] And forever means forever and that' s what it will always mean.
[00:54.53] And life is a reality except for when it' s a dream.
[00:57.46] And those are the moments that I can' t seem to think,
[01:00.10] But I make sense of my mess by making sense of her and me.
[01:03.43] And this fear keeps me alive,
[01:05.28] This fear of knowing that she could leave me.
[01:08.06] And I could try.
[01:10.00] But this fear fuels the flames,
[01:11.75] That' s why I feel like I' m going to die.
[01:14.23] Cause she kept a part of me close by and I liked it the best I can.
[01:18.61] And now that I know who I used to be it' s hard to be happy with who I am.
[01:22.35] And that' s where she came in.
[01:24.15] A halfbaked smile and a love to pretend,
[01:26.54] But prior to then, love was nothing more to me than a vacation,
[01:30.27] A vacant motivation,
[01:31.07] To avoid the means it takes to reach any real end.
[01:34.65] A sense of salvation,
[01:36.29] But also an element of bitter hope,
[01:37.93] To cope with the rope that was tied around my neck.
[01:42.61] And the saviour I hoped for was chased away,
[01:45.00] Way back then,
[01:45.85] When I found vices to take the place of all the things I wanted to be.
[01:51.08] And I lost sight of me,
[01:52.72] But I was told I could be anybody.
[01:54.47] And I thought I could find purpose in loving someone who looks like me
[01:58.80] And I began dreaming or sinking,
[02:00.49] Most nights they meant the same thing.
[02:02.03] And when that salvation finally found me,
[02:04.93]] It was traded away for thirty pieces of silver.
[02:07.12] Seems like that' s not too much I guess but I sold my saviour for a whole lot less.
[02:10.95] My two best friends,
[02:12.64] Acceptance and a mirage of fake happiness.
[02:15.43] And now the words I use to cling to as my refuge,
[02:18.41] Now torture me in my head.
[02:20.05] Forgive them father they know not what they do,
[02:22.24] It' s funny cause it seems like I did every time I lied to you.
[02:26.32] And that' s my only truth,
[02:28.41] That I can' t sleep at night
[02:29.65] And I can' t get these things right,
[02:31.25] And salvation escaped when she came into view.
[02:34.13] And now I' m hoping my whole life isn' t mistaken as you,
[02:37.86] But there' s no way of knowing,
[02:39.71] When all I' m doing is coping.
[02:42.49] With my own pride.
[02:46.28] And my past would fight with me hoping I would find truth,
[02:49.52] But it' s never a good idea to start a fight with a man who has nothing to lose,
[02:55.24] And I' m empty.
[02:56.98] My heart is caving in.
[03:00.62] And for whatever reason,
[03:03.80] I finally let somebody in.
[03:07.44] And I don' t know what love is.
[03:09.43] But I' m growing.