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I will stay calm and collected but just for a moment |
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I have forsaken my motions and now feel broken |
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caught in a radical state feeling progressive in a way |
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but emptied of all structure |
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I feel like my life has been stripped away |
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sometimes when I close my eyes |
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I see myself as an empty cathedral |
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and I can't help but yeild those |
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those lackluster vehicles tiny engines |
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that encourage my deepening state of confusion |
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without her to hold I feel like |
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I can't keep control over my original visions |
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I've seen the cinematic adaptation of broken relations |
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but first hand experiences the only way |
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to understand the emotions that come with it |
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those moment of wishing things were different |
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cliche it may seem but I feel like it needs to be evaluated |
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those forgotten messages I whispered under my breathe |
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everytime I thought about the future I wanted to possess |
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then those dark reminiscent nights lost in thought |
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when questions not answers is all I got |
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was it something I said? |
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if not I promise it will be because I'm not givin up yet |
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I try not to speak from the heart but from my head |
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but todays an exception and my words were reflected |
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my lungs hurt from inhaling the past |
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I feel like a ship with a broken mast following a north star, |
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a course far, a horse par |
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that never wanted to meet a path I never wanted to seek |
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desiring to be free |
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desiring to forget the memories floating off behind me |
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but still somehow hoping this is all a terrible dream |
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and things will go back to how I thought they were meant to be |
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I'm a monster to my own philosophies basing my happiness off |
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of anything I can grasp that wont kill me |
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just so I can feel something |
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just so this pain can mean something |
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maybe not to me at least to somebody |
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and when I leave this present darkness |
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and harness enough self respect to move out |
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out of the stickening wall between acceptance and reluctant help |
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so please remove this fleeting need to feel her touch against my flesh |
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and replenish that ambition I once had to seek authentic love again |
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because as long as we keep dreaming |
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our hearts continue beating and love will find us |
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even if we're sleeping |