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I am so excited |
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Because I'm gonna go to the High School of Performing Arts. |
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I mean, I was dying to be a serious actress. |
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Anyway, it's the first day of acting class |
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And we're in the auditorium, and the teacher, |
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Mr. Karp, puts us up on the stage with our legs around everybody |
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One in back of the other. And he says, |
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"Okay, we're gonna do improvisations. |
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Now, you're on a bob sled |
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And it's snowing out and it's cold. |
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Okay, go!" |
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Ev'ry day for a week we would try to feel the motion, |
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Feel the motion down the hill. |
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Ev'ry day for a week we would try to hear the wind rush, |
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Hear the wind rush, feel the chill. |
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And I dug right down to the bottom |
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Of my soul to see what I had inside. |
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Yes, I dug right down to the bottom |
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Of my soul and I tried, I tried. |
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Everyone is going "Woosh I feel the snow, |
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I feel the cold I feel the air." |
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And Mr. Karp turns to me and says, |
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"Okay, Morales, what did you feel " |
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And I said, "Nothing, I'm feeling nothing," |
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And he says, "Nothing could get a girl transferred!" |
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They all felt something, but I felt nothing |
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Except the feeling that this bullshit was absurd! |
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But I said to myself, |
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"Hey!, it's only the first week. Maybe it's genetic. |
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They don't have bob sleds in San Juan." |
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Second week, more advanced |
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And we had to be a table, be a sports car ice cream cone. |
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Mr. Karp, he would say, |
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"Very good, except Morales. |
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Try, Morales, all alone." |
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So I dug right down to the bottom |
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Of my soul to see how an ice cream felt. |
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Yes, I dug right down to the bottom |
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Of my soul and I tried to melt. |
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The kids yelled, "Nothing!" |
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They called me "Nothing!" |
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And Karp allowed it, which really makes me burn. |
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They were so helpful. |
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They called me hopeless. |
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Until I really didn't know where else to turn! |
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And Karp kept saying, |
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"Morales, I think you should transfer to girls' high. |
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You'll never be an actress. Never! Jesus Christ! |
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Went to church praying, |
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"Santa Maria, send me guidance, send me guidance." |
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On my knees. |
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Went to church praying, |
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"Santa Maria, help me feel it, |
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Help me feel it. Pretty please." |
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And a voice from down at the bottom |
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Of my soul cam up to the top of my head. |
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And the voice from down at the bottom of my soul, |
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Here is what it said |
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"This man is nothing! |
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This course is nothing! |
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If you want something, go find a better class. |
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And when you find one, you'll be an actress." |
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And I assure you that's what fin'lly came to pass. |
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Six months later I heard that Karp had died. |
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And I dug right down to the bottom of my soul and cried, |
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'cause I felt nothing. |
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