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When I was a child the world was very very big and very strange |
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Now nothing seems to have changed since |
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I was a child |
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Nervous, shy and insecure |
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I stumbled into adulthood and it hurt |
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It hurt so very much, more than |
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I could feel |
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But mother didn't want me so she gave me to my sister like a toy |
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A frightened little boy, big sister's little toy |
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But my eldest sister was the apple of my father's eye she did no wrong |
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With her I did belong, she gave all her love to me |
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I could never forgive you, but |
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I'd never forget you |
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I could never forgive you although you did me wrong |
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My sister felt my father's hand, my father's belt you know |
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I never did |
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And in the strangest way they make me feel unloved |
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Catholic school the pain the guilt my story is no different to tell |
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Every young man's hell there just waiting for the bell |
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And confidence came fleetingly and left as soon the same way that it came |
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Slowly out the way and left me deep in shame |
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I wish I could love myself and tell myself there's more to life than this |
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I held it my in my hands, |
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I had it in my hands |
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I could never forgive you, |
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I could never forget you |
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I could never forgive you although you did me wrong |
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My parents said |
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I wasn't planned, nine and eleven years between sisters and me |
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They nearly gave me away, |
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I think they did too, anyway |
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I never thought |
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I would forgive [__________] |
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They put her in a cage, |
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I was seven years of age |
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And it could never be this when she let me stay up late she let me stay |
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She cuddled me and said "You'll be too big for this one day.""You'll be too big for this one day." |
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Everything she touches turns to gold |
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May I be so bold, let me know just how it feels |
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May I be so bold, let me know just how it feels |
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Everything she touches turns to gold |
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May I be so bold, let me know just how it feels |
