| I risked my soul's redemption | |
| For I'm dying to know | |
| Whether annihilation awaits my soul | |
| Or into hell's fire I'll be thrown | |
| For I prefer to die knowing | |
| Whether my life makes sense | |
| Rather than live in piety | |
| Hoping that this will save me from hell | |
| Instead of those doubts inside | |
| I'd rather succumb to Your wrath | |
| Instead of this mental torment | |
| I'd rather have Your judgement | |
| The bitter taste of conscious guilt | |
| Has rendered my heart ice-cold | |
| As apathy takes over now | |
| I wish You could tell me, my Lord | |
| Why don't You answer my prayers | |
| Why are you so silent and cold? | |
| Did someone kill You as they say | |
| Or did You ignore my call? | |
| Damned and doomed, | |
| Trapped in your intricate path | |
| Unable to move towards the light | |
| And find the truth before I die | |
| Once You were my shepherd | |
| Now tell me what could possibly | |
| Cure me from this lethargy? | |
| Be the guide to my last fall, | |
| Be the witness of my defeat | |
| Be there with me, a silent one | |
| Your Word do not need, | |
| Only Your presence | |
| As I'm laying here peacefully | |
| And a cold breeze sweeps my face | |
| I can finally feel the secret of my existence | |
| And the wind drops suddenly, | |
| And the gates show me the only way | |
| Now everything is in place for the ultimate sin... |