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Feels better if I tell em my story |
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Yo' on November 24th' 1999 |
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I was in L.A.' and I was in the kitchen cookin |
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And I got this page right |
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And uh' I called back and I was informed that |
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My father had passed away from a herion overdose |
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About two hour's earlier |
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So this song is for him' and to him |
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And for all the fatherless children in the world |
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The mother's who raised us' the people who love us |
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It's a Monday' finally found the perfect beat |
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To speak my peace on how I came to be |
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The way I was raised' how I was born |
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Why I smile so sad' and have the eyes of a storm |
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Moms from Virginia' you from Rhode Island |
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Met up in the state where the sun's always smilin |
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Minds connected' physicals exchanged |
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Y'all both believin that the world can be changed |
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Time passed to 1973' and you begged my mom to create me |
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First she said no but she loved you too much |
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1974 had a child to touch |
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We was into other things' that ripped life scenes |
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Liqour' drugs' other women' destroyin dreams |
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But you know how women be' she tried to hold on |
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For the sake of your love and the beautiful bond |
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I'ma fatherless child' it's all I ever been |
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It's all I ever be' since your gone from me |
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Still I hope you know' that I can never unlove you' love you |
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1974 was a year things changed |
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Too much alcholol makes people violent and strange |
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You broke the window's with a baseball bat |
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As my mother cried inside with me on her lap |
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The dream destroyed' it was time to leave |
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She didn't take much' just a few things of lovin me |
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That was the birth of this fatherless child |
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And a struggling mother with the world in her eyes |
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She did it though' put herself in college |
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Raisin me wit grace' givin me the knowledge |
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And pops you' you never came by |
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Never sent money never called to say hi |
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I use to lie to the other kids' on the block |
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Say I knew where you was at so the questions would stop |
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I fronted to my friends that you didn't mean much |
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But I use to cry alone' and lone for your touch |
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I'ma fatherless child' it's all I ever been |
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It's all I ever be' since your gone from me |
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Still I hope you know' that I can never unlove you' love you |
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Ninth grade I thought you were dead |
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Call my mom about a paper' and that's what you said |
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I was angry and confused' all because of you |
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youWanted to ask you why' and just say **** |
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But the feelings passed' what was my options? |
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Studyin my face tryna find what was lost and |
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I decided that you didn't mean shit |
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That I was really worth lovin and you lossed a gift |
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Before that' I grew breast and things |
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Got raped in the bathroom' and the question sings |
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What it have' could it have' should it have |
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Been different if I had yo hand to grab? |
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Would I be easier to love' not so torn inside |
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If you would've beat that man' and stood by my side? |
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Would I write sad songs' and call pain daily? |
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How different would I be if you had raised me? |
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I'ma fatherless child' it's all I ever been |
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It's all I ever be' since your gone from me |
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Still I hope you know' that I can never unlove you' love you |
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1997' you called my home |
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From Telegraph&43' for the child you never owned |
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I told you come by' Adam came to help me |
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You were homeless and drunk' but not lookin uhealthly |
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We sat for hour's' I asked you every question |
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We sang on my porch and discussed life lession's |
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And I loved you' like you had always been they're |
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You said you'd never leave again' so I released my fears |
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1999' tryna to sign my deal |
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Ten years of hard work' finally becomin real |
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So I brush you off' writin songs for a movie |
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That was the last time I saw you' forgive me truly |
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The day my deal was done' you died |
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Wit the needle in your arm' and angels by your side |
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And I miss you' tattooed it on my back |
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Fatherless child' fade to black |
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I'ma fatherless child' it's all I ever been |
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It's all I ever be' since your gone from me |
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Still I hope you know' that I can never unlove you' love you |
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I'ma fatherless child' it's all I ever been |
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It's all I ever be' since your gone from me |
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Still I hope you know' that I can never unlove you' love you |