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is it a blessin' to live or a blessin' to die? |
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Let me finish off this hell with no questions why |
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I should be happy i'm on and i'm dressed in fly but is the game changing me for |
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The extra pie? |
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If you could just look into the life i live |
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360 catching up on all the trife i did |
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Got my peoples up north trynna slice the bids |
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While i'm in love with a nigga with a wife and kid |
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Maybe if my pops aint abondend me |
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I wouldn't let so many niggas take advantage of me |
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Using me |
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Some even put their hands on me |
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I wonder what the most high god planned for me |
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My life line gettin' shorter when i look at my palms |
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Will i be notin' like my biological moms |
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She aint raised me so naturally i never felt the bond |
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At 16 got my ged never saw a prom |
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Chorus: i've been weak and i've been strong |
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Been through the fire ive'been through the storms |
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I try to do right and i know i do wrong |
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Just be happy for me when my life is gone |
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No more hurt and no more tears |
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The'll be no more pain and no more fears |
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No more people in my face that's |
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Not sincere so |
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Smile for me when i'm no longer here |
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At a younge age i let the world turn me out |
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Pellets and purple haze been burnt me out |
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A hardknock life was i learned about |
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Trynna ease the only thing i be concerned about |
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Tellin' my youth everything happen for a reason |
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Let them know it aint daddy's fault the moneys be leavin' |
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If it wasn't for the streets he'd still be breathin; |
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Trynna raise him by myself but i know he need him |
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Me and my seed used to live for mostly welfare |
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Only two checks a month for us both to share |
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I remember makin' sure that the cost was clear so i could boost us |
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Some mother ****in' clothes to wear |
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Had to hustle cuz those food stamps just wasn't enough |
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Up state back to ? gotta throw me up |
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All this fast cash only turned the heat up |
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Can't afford to get knocked but who gonna feed us? |
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Chorus |
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Can't shake these thoughts of suicide |
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Anyone i ever loved though was close to die |
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Ones i trusted or though was being true, lied |
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A life time of tears but just a few i cried |
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Try to take my past and stick it up on the shelf |
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Will my actions stay from all the pain i felt |
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Just trynna make the best out the hand i delt |
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If i fall who can i turn to for help |
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Is my man with me and not my wealth |
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Will he be there through good and bad sickness and health |
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Does he want the real me or somebody else? |
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I've been ? just so i don't hurt myself |
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Now that i'm on |
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Most can't stand me now |
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But they was happy when i rocked all them hand me downs |
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When i need 'em funny how they can't be found |
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That's why the most high's my only family now |
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Chorus |
