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Yeah |
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No matter what plane I'm inside of and what ocean I'm on top of |
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Distance from everything is still the problem |
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Everyone I need is down thousands of feet |
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And everyone who's with me now, I pay 'em to be |
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I'm in Germany with merch money in my lap |
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But all I think about is my mom is home with a bad back |
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And every Monday she's hunched over, draggin' out the trash |
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That should be me |
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But she won't say it 'cause she don't want to distract |
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I don't even talk to dad, I think that whole thing is ruined |
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He don't reach out 'cause he just feels like he's intruding |
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But I don't reach out |
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'Cause every time we catch up it's so obvious |
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These are things we shouldn't just be catching up about, like |
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What country you in? What house you been staying in? |
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What's your manager's name again? How much you payin' him? |
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I don't blame him though, I don't keep him up to speed |
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If I'm not a bad son, I'm probably somewhere in between |
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Now when I get recognized in public, they say I'm standoffish |
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Really I'm just awkward when I'm talking |
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When you see how shy I am, you probably think that I ain't poppin' |
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So when you call my name, don't call it again if I ain't respondin' |
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But my producer hang with artists who are way bigger than me |
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And they get recognized every time in the street |
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So when I'm with my producer out to eat |
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I pray a fan approaches so I can make him say |
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"True, he's doing his thing too" |
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****** I ain't famous, guess I'm somewhere in between |
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If I was famous, |
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I wouldn't have to promote my song on this livestream |
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'Cause my manager told me to, he said my plays aren't the best |
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So I fake a smile to hundreds of fans like |
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"It's my fastest growing yet! Look I'm happy, don't forget!" |
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Mom's back is broke again |
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Still tryna get me off pills that control the stress |
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How I'm supposed to tell my older sister that I'm still depressed? |
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With merch money in my lap, |
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But she ain't made a ******g dollar yet |
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Today I read a comment telling me that I'm a gimmick |
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With controversial storylines to get attention |
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A few fans came to my defense like "We were boys" |
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I wanted to tell those fans that maybe he has a point |
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I wrote a song about a kid who got bullied, |
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It's called "Exception" |
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And the part I didn't mention, was Andy was a real person |
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And someone I befriended |
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Then I left him for another group of friends who used to torment him |
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I made money of off "Exception" and off of Andy |
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In interviews they treated me like a hero |
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I wrote a song about how ******ed up social media was |
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And started dating a chick |
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Who wanted me to post her to get her followers up |
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So no matter how many ******' comments that I read |
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Tellin' me how much that I've helped them to grow |
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And follow their dreams |
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I'ma still feel like a coward, the hero just ain't me |
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But to make them feel better, |
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Just tell them I'm somewhere in between |
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Between somewhere |
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Yeah, ayy |
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Success is coming in heavy, I think I'm changing already |
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My life is intimidating so friends just want to impress me |
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Some wear Supreme to impress, some bring a gun to impress me |
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But none of that does impress me |
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Whether if it's love or envy |
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Mark was tryin' to get me with Em, |
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I told him I wasn't ready |
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Maybe that was a mistake |
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Maybe I would've blown up already |
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Wonder if Interscope was mad |
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That I didn't pick up when they called again |
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Subliminal disses from legends are still compliments |
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Tour money had me talkin' ****** |
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'Til I spend sixty thousand on clothes and went broke |
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Manager screamed at me, watch your tone |
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See, when couple thousand in the crowd tell me yes |
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It's hard to tell me no |
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I'm still in Germany with merch money in my lap, ****** |
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I'm countin' it even if I already double checked |
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There's no better feeling than holding your parents rent |
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I know I could still fail, but they only see success |
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And I'm somewhere in between it |
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This plane is too high, you can't reach it |
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No service, no service, no service, I got no plan |
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Ain't nobody knockin' on my door except the post man |