I'm (not really) optimistic

Song I'm (not really) optimistic
Artist Ecstasy Of St. Theresa
Album Slowthinking

Lyrics

I'm (not really) optimistic
I'm not really in the mood for that these days
Not so sure I can fix it
Can hardly say what I feel
I'm (not really) optimistic
Tune, pulse, gesture, in a fade
Not so sure I'll miss it
Can hardly say what is real
I think I lost it
Lost my head
Nothing is wanted
Instead