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It's kinda hard to explain |
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But I been thinkin, haven't come to a decision |
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Drinkin away the pain night after night, listen |
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It's like I'm caught in the rain, that never stops and only follows me |
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Wide hollow feelin of emptiness, nothing inside of me |
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Drama lays my head on the pillow, but still no sleep |
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Been walkin the Wonderland for 40 days and 7 weeks |
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Just wonderin how good it would be, to finally say goodbye |
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To everything that's goin wrong, God, especially me |
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I wanna let go, let my mind just finally be free |
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Breathe with no echo, tomorrow won't be less without me |
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I stay in wet though, only thing that keeps me on the side |
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Of the living is you, said the same thing to me too |
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Otherwise, I'm just caught up in deception and lies |
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I have days of just wakin and hatin the sunshine |
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Hatin life itself, hatin death for takin it's time |
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Lovin you enough not to commit the ultimate crime |
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I sin in my mind though, visions of weaponry wettin me up |
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Payin people off for settin me up |
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Some crazy wild sick imagery, paintin pictures of bloody scenes |
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Seems the only peace of mind's in dreams |
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So I pray for never-ending sleep, but it never comes |
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So I pray for being so weak, and givin up |
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Friends say I live the party life, livin it up |
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One hand on the glass, other on the bottle, fillin it up |
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I wanna leave so bad, but lovin you is enough |
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To make a slow exit to Hell, would never leave you here by yourself |
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Nobody else could keep me here but you |
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Nobody else could wipe away the tears but you |
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I love you too much |
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[Chorus] |
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I would, give my, life for you |
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If you asked me too |
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I would do, just anything for you |
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And the world if I could |
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I would give to you |
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But I don't have anything to give |
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So I sweat just to live for you |
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Live for you |
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[Jean Grae] |
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Are you dissapointed in me? Twenty-three, can't get it together |
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No money, no job, debt that seems to last forever |
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I just wanna make you proud someday |
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Like acceptin awards that's in front of a crowd |
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And say "Thanks" in front of a million people |
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Tell you I've fallin victim to some evil things in the past |
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My road's been short but rough; |
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A lot of things you don't know even if you ask |
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I wanna tell you all but I can't, you're too precious for that |
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Try and explain why your daughter is into rap |
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I'm like guilt with a guilty conscience |
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Emotional politics wild on me |
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Constantly pregnant with a rowdy problem child in me |
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I wonder if we switched places, changed the dial on me |
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Would you rather be somebody else's mommy? Divorced probably |
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Just show me, no apology needed, I understand the reason |
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It's the quality of livin, and what you want for children |
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I'm not givin it, but you're the kind of love that never gives up |
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[Chorus] |
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[Jean Grae] |
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I promised I'm gonna buy you that house on the beach |
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A whole damn street |
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And give you grandchildren, two maybe three |
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Build you a studio and get you back to recordin |
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And singin whenever you want, give you whatever you want |
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I know you miss the music too, you just put up a front |
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But I can see it in your eyes, musical echo soul cries to be free |
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Don't you worry about me |
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I'm gonna be alright, when I'm in darkness in my life |
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I just think different, like you taught me |
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The way you do, shine different, they all can see |
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I just wanna tell you you're loved |
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And anything that I can ever do for you is never enough |
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It's never enough, it's never enough |
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[Chorus] |
