[00:00.00]alanis morissette
[00:05.53]i was hoping
[00:09.25]as we were talking outside,
[00:11.70]it was cold,
[00:13.40]we were shivering, yet warmed by the subject matter.
[00:17.81]my wife is in the next room,
[00:20.03]we've been having troubles you know,
[00:22.58]please don't tell her or anyone,
[00:24.55]but i need to talk to somebody.
[00:27.37]you said, 'wouldn't it be a shame if i knew how great i was
[00:31.47]five minutes before i died?
[00:33.54]i'd be filled with such regret
[00:35.94]before i took my last breath.'
[00:37.52]and i said, 'you're willing to tell me this now,
[00:40.49]and you're not going to die
[00:42.73]anytime soon.'
[00:44.50]and i said i haven't been eating chicken,or meat,or anything.
[00:47.87]and you said yes,
[00:48.88]but you've been wearing leather
[00:53.65]and laughed and said
[00:54.77]we're at the top of the food chain.
[00:56.88]and yes you're still a fine woman,
[00:59.25]and i cringed.
[01:03.75]i was hoping,
[01:06.80]i was hoping we could heal each other.
[01:12.82]i was hoping,
[01:15.90]i was hoping we could be raw together.
[01:22.41]
[01:24.48]
[01:26.09]we left the restaurant where the head waiter (in his 60's), said
[01:29.89]'good bye, sir.
[01:31.12]thank you for your business sir.
[01:32.83]you're successful and established, sir,
[01:35.26]and we like the frequency with which you dine here sir.
[01:38.63]and your money.'
[01:43.73]and when i walked by, they said 'thank you too dear.'
[01:47.34]i was all pigtails and cords.
[01:49.98]and there was a day when i would've said something like,
[01:52.99]'hey dude, i could buy and sell this place, so kiss it.'
[01:57.71]i too once thought
[01:58.98]i was owed something.
[02:02.29]i was hoping,
[02:05.30]i was hoping we could challenge each other.
[02:11.34]i was hoping,
[02:14.37]i was hoping we could crack each other up.
[02:21.10]i too thought that when proved wrong, i lost somehow.
[02:25.81]i too thought life was cruel.
[02:30.14]it's a cycle, really.
[02:31.43]you think i'm withdrawing and guilt tripping you.
[02:34.65]i think you're insensitive and i don't feel heard.
[02:36.90]and i said 'do you believe we are
[02:38.57]fundamentally judgmental?
[02:42.95]fundamentally evil?'
[02:46.48]and you said yes.
[02:48.55]and i said do you believe in revenge,
[02:51.14]in right or wrong,
[02:52.82]good or bad?
[02:53.34]and you said 'well, what about the man that
[02:54.93]i saw handcuffed in the emergency room,
[02:58.02]bleeding after beating his kid,
[02:59.74]and she threw a shoe at his head.
[03:02.25]i think what he did was wrong,
[03:05.11]and i wouldn't have had a hard time feeling compassion for him.'
[03:09.00]i had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged.
[03:14.94]i was hoping,
[03:17.95]i was hoping we could dance together.
[03:24.00]i was hoping,
[03:27.00]i was hoping we could be creamy together.