Smokin' on the loudest out Tryna see through a cloud of doubt Goin' till a pound is out We all got problems too proud to pout More than '99, I ain't about to count Takin' long walks when I'm out and about Dreaming 10 mil just to round amount Used to look for direction, till I found a route Wonder how the charts feel Paranoia thoughts stay dark, still Everyday I'm here I try to write songs Cause I know the beat'll longer than my heart will Yeah, tryna see every state No white lighters, hope I see 28 You can tell my girl I'mma be runnin' late Can't tell how much longer she's gonna wait A real good girl with a dirt bag guy She could probably do better than me Like a rich-ass lawyer with a house and car Who takes care of her and never leaves Man, ****t I try my best Nobody here for me to try and impress I'd rather chase a dream Than be content to sit behind a desk I used to live with the highest stress But **** it, I digress Just believe Lately I've been losing sleep Stressed, sorry if my mood is deep No one to talk to, I use the beat A couple bad habits that I choose to keep My intake of booze is steep Pop a couple of pills that I use to sleep I think I took a few this week I'm trying to adjust to the hugest leap I'm living off this music, here But I'm afraid of failing That's the truth, sincere My anxiety is getting too severe But I ain't giving up, there's no excuses here Dying young might be my truest fear But now my future's bright and my view is clear Told her I'mma get it, I'mma do it, dear There's no way in hell I could lose this year I worked 10 years 'fore it ever paid off You don't know what I had to trade off I shed tears when my moms got laid off Life's never fair, it never plays soft I'mma go get it, I'mma do it for my folks Every day I'm out, man I always do the most You would do the same ****t if you was on the ropes ****t gets realer when you zooming up close Just believe