作曲 : Natalie Sims/Kenneth Chris Mackey/Tyshane Thompson/Kevin Burgess/Joseph Prielozny
It must've been 3 A.M. when the text came in
The sum of my fears
My stomach bending, my thumb was trembling
No pun intended
But I wanted to die when I saw  it was him
And it read KB
This time it's real
Homie, I can't live
It was in all caps
But I knew he had no caps on his guns or his pills
So I ripped out the door
All the covers down on the floor, no shoes
I just walk on my tears
Calling him over and over and over again
While I'm throwing the car into gear
Could he be so selfish?
Will this effort fail too?
Why won't he answer, answer, he answer?
Jason, hello?
It's suicide, suicide, suicide
Got one in the chamber
That's waiting to take you right out tonight
Don't roll the dice
Roll the dice, roll the dice
It's all on the table
It's all for the taking
But what's the odds?
Yeah
I parked in the street
At the car with the keys
Should I call the police?
What if he turns it on me?
Then I looked up, is that him over the sink?
I can't think
My tongue is as heavy as my heart
I can't speak
Every time I blink I'm a step closer
My heart about to burst
As I close up on the front door
And give the doorbell a ring
It was unlocked so I ran to the top staircase
As I stare, got a case on the floor
Jason, open up
Continued to knock
Jason, open up, you ain't gotta do this
What about the kids?
Don't go Judas, you got reason to live
We could get through this, don't give in
Then I heard movement
And a voice I'll never forget
He said stop it, stop it
I'm about to cock it
You barely called back when I was in Iraq
Just leave homeboy, I got this
You know the truth is
I had to shoot kids
I'm so guilty
And God might let it go
But I'll never forgive me
Oh, why not?
The army never trained me to care
You don't know the horror of living in a war zone
And then coming back to civilian affairs
I made my bed, the tables were set
My wife moved out, I don't see my kids
Everything that gave me
Meaning is gone
The grief's deep-seeded
I bleed to the bone, I want out
Suicide, suicide, suicide
Got one in the chamber
That's waiting to take you right out tonight
Don't roll the dice
Roll the dice, roll the dice
It's all on the table
It's all for the taking
But what's the odds?
No, no
I ain't have a word
Not a story, not a verse
But the silence
I'm trying not to make this worse
I pray and I googled a search
Nothing from school that will work
But I grew up in the church
So what do I do?
Just fell to my knees and I started to blurt
I don't understand this, I don't understand this
But you been looking to the weed and them dancers
Don't be conned by the yay
Nobody in the west got the answers
Let's get established
Your life isn't yours to demand it
You can't do what you please
Jason, I love you
But the next step is God, homie
You ain't escaping a thing
You know Jesus he wanted to die in that garden
Acquainted to man in his sorrows
But he kept up the fight
'Cause he knew joy, it was coming tomorrow
You haven't squeezed that revolver
'Cause you know that there's hope
At the end of the tunnel
Embrace it, don't matter how faint it
God is not silent, please hear what he's
Jason! Jason!
(911 what's your emergency?)
Yes, uh, I got a friend he's
Locked himself in the bathroom
And I just heard a gun go off
I, I don't know
(Okay calm down, sir)
(Are you able to get inside the room)
Yeah, he, he's got me locked out
(Okay can you try to get inside the room)
Hold on I'ma try to
(Sir?)
Jason
Okay, he, he's not shot
He dropped the gun but he's passed out
(Sir I'm gonna need you to calm down)
No, no you calm down
Send help quick
Uh-oh
Uh-oh
Hope is calling you
Uh-oh-oh
Uh-oh-oh
Hope is calling you