[00:00.000] 作曲 : Natalie Sims/Kenneth Chris Mackey/Tyshane Thompson/Kevin Burgess/Joseph Prielozny
[00:25.260]It must've been 3 A.M. when the text came in
[00:27.510]The sum of my fears
[00:29.120]My stomach bending, my thumb was trembling
[00:30.880]No pun intended
[00:31.390]But I wanted to die when I saw  it was him
[00:33.000]And it read KB
[00:34.260]This time it's real
[00:35.900]Homie, I can't live
[00:37.700]It was in all caps
[00:38.820]But I knew he had no caps on his guns or his pills
[00:40.500]So I ripped out the door
[00:42.600]All the covers down on the floor, no shoes
[00:44.150]I just walk on my tears
[00:45.360]Calling him over and over and over again
[00:47.660]While I'm throwing the car into gear
[00:49.100]Could he be so selfish?
[00:50.370]Will this effort fail too?
[00:51.800]Why won't he answer, answer, he answer?
[00:53.900]Jason, hello?
[00:57.450]It's suicide, suicide, suicide
[01:01.260]Got one in the chamber
[01:02.680]That's waiting to take you right out tonight
[01:04.930]Don't roll the dice
[01:06.810]Roll the dice, roll the dice
[01:09.380]It's all on the table
[01:10.660]It's all for the taking
[01:11.710]But what's the odds?
[01:13.330]Yeah
[01:14.150]I parked in the street
[01:15.650]At the car with the keys
[01:17.290]Should I call the police?
[01:18.480]What if he turns it on me?
[01:19.880]Then I looked up, is that him over the sink?
[01:21.670]I can't think
[01:22.280]My tongue is as heavy as my heart
[01:23.460]I can't speak
[01:24.400]Every time I blink I'm a step closer
[01:26.010]My heart about to burst
[01:27.130]As I close up on the front door
[01:28.490]And give the doorbell a ring
[01:29.660]It was unlocked so I ran to the top staircase
[01:32.630]As I stare, got a case on the floor
[01:34.080]Jason, open up
[01:35.370]Continued to knock
[01:36.100]Jason, open up, you ain't gotta do this
[01:38.050]What about the kids?
[01:39.170]Don't go Judas, you got reason to live
[01:41.200]We could get through this, don't give in
[01:43.120]Then I heard movement
[01:44.030]And a voice I'll never forget
[01:45.530]He said stop it, stop it
[01:47.880]I'm about to cock it
[01:49.560]You barely called back when I was in Iraq
[01:51.590]Just leave homeboy, I got this
[01:53.390]You know the truth is
[01:54.600]I had to shoot kids
[01:55.850]I'm so guilty
[01:57.700]And God might let it go
[01:59.840]But I'll never forgive me
[02:01.440]Oh, why not?
[02:02.860]The army never trained me to care
[02:05.150]You don't know the horror of living in a war zone
[02:07.290]And then coming back to civilian affairs
[02:09.050]I made my bed, the tables were set
[02:11.120]My wife moved out, I don't see my kids
[02:13.090]Everything that gave me
[02:14.220]Meaning is gone
[02:15.300]The grief's deep-seeded
[02:16.350]I bleed to the bone, I want out
[02:18.070]Suicide, suicide, suicide
[02:21.380]Got one in the chamber
[02:22.630]That's waiting to take you right out tonight
[02:25.200]Don't roll the dice
[02:26.780]Roll the dice, roll the dice
[02:29.280]It's all on the table
[02:30.510]It's all for the taking
[02:31.870]But what's the odds?
[02:33.230]No, no
[02:34.120]I ain't have a word
[02:35.910]Not a story, not a verse
[02:37.290]But the silence
[02:38.970]I'm trying not to make this worse
[02:41.150]I pray and I googled a search
[02:43.120]Nothing from school that will work
[02:44.420]But I grew up in the church
[02:45.540]So what do I do?
[02:47.260]Just fell to my knees and I started to blurt
[02:49.600]I don't understand this, I don't understand this
[02:51.670]But you been looking to the weed and them dancers
[02:54.120]Don't be conned by the yay
[02:55.670]Nobody in the west got the answers
[02:57.910]Let's get established
[02:58.650]Your life isn't yours to demand it
[03:00.560]You can't do what you please
[03:01.800]Jason, I love you
[03:02.400]But the next step is God, homie
[03:03.990]You ain't escaping a thing
[03:05.640]You know Jesus he wanted to die in that garden
[03:07.660]Acquainted to man in his sorrows
[03:09.870]But he kept up the fight
[03:11.440]'Cause he knew joy, it was coming tomorrow
[03:13.670]You haven't squeezed that revolver
[03:15.750]'Cause you know that there's hope
[03:16.500]At the end of the tunnel
[03:17.700]Embrace it, don't matter how faint it
[03:19.320]God is not silent, please hear what he's
[03:25.370]Jason! Jason!
[03:29.000](911 what's your emergency?)
[03:30.490]Yes, uh, I got a friend he's
[03:32.850]Locked himself in the bathroom
[03:34.200]And I just heard a gun go off
[03:36.330]I, I don't know
[03:37.050](Okay calm down, sir)
[03:37.970](Are you able to get inside the room)
[03:39.300]Yeah, he, he's got me locked out
[03:41.570](Okay can you try to get inside the room)
[03:43.420]Hold on I'ma try to
[03:44.980](Sir?)
[03:46.530]Jason
[03:48.120]Okay, he, he's not shot
[03:49.790]He dropped the gun but he's passed out
[03:51.370](Sir I'm gonna need you to calm down)
[03:53.090]No, no you calm down
[03:55.250]Send help quick
[03:56.270]Uh-oh
[03:58.160]Uh-oh
[04:01.510]Hope is calling you
[04:04.110]Uh-oh-oh
[04:06.130]Uh-oh-oh
[04:09.110]Hope is calling you