[00:01.02]This is the death of my origin
[00:16.27]This is the death of my origin
[00:19.30]No rest for the sick and weary
[00:22.78]Just a rope growing tighter around my neck
[00:26.52]For twenty five years
[00:28.30]I've tried so hard but now it
[00:30.70]Feels like twenty five too long
[00:33.56]
[00:34.20]Just for a moment I wish that
[00:37.12]I could breathe without the weight
[00:39.58]Of the world crushing down on me
[00:44.79]Better off dead
[00:46.98]No burden to my friends
[00:49.40]No more days of wishing
[00:51.18]I won't have to wake up the next
[00:54.43]Does it matter if I am dead or alive
[01:05.22]The future seems so dark but
[01:09.04]I'm trying to keep
[01:11.37]My head above the water
[01:16.75]
[01:19.17]I am so sick and fed up with
[01:22.84]The burden of my consciousness
[01:26.03]The voices in my head
[01:28.35]I only hear them say that
[01:33.63]I'll be dead before the dawn
[01:37.24]Wave goodbye to your sanity
[01:41.19]And just remember you'll
[01:43.00]Never truly be at peace
[01:45.72]No one knows how it feels
[01:50.71]
[01:52.36]To hate the one that lies
[01:54.32]In your own skin
[01:55.94]
[02:01.06]Better off dead
[02:03.44]No burden to my friends
[02:05.98]No more days of wishing
[02:07.72]I won't have to wake up the next
[02:10.86]Does it matter if I am dead or alive
[02:21.79]The future seems so dark but
[02:25.54]I'm trying to keep
[02:27.87]My head above the water
[02:33.05]
[02:37.52]I'm trying to keep my head
[02:42.68]Above the water but the tide
[02:51.23]Keeps keeps rising and rising
[02:59.37]So safe so small with the
[03:03.93]Rope tight around my neck
[03:06.75]One last goodbye to remind
[03:10.95]You that although I'm sick
[03:14.63]I love you still and I hope
[03:20.19]You won't forget me when I'm gone
[03:28.86]
[03:32.28]The proper way to die was not
[03:35.74]A choice for me to make
[03:39.13]I held on as long as
[03:40.69]I could but I lost my grip
[03:45.69]The anxiety that plagued me
[03:48.76]Is but a bitter memory
[03:51.76]
[03:52.27]I'll reap what I have sown and
[03:55.29]Take that step to bring me peace
[03:59.14]
[03:59.75]God help me if you exist this is
[04:03.54]Not a world I'm meant to live in