Beside my ghost I suppose I was there But in my soul I swear I wasn’t, but feeding this vine growing inside Without my knowledge I was driven off course And all this bound me to you You never had any role to play But to shine as a beacon What if I had let it run wild Brought it into the light of day Instead of nurturing it in my silent soul The antidote is inside this sword Looming above our heads With its unique poison to be cooked Why is this holding me down While I try to rise up Is this fight between the two birds insoluble and eternal? From this tension I know I can grow But the chasm is too vast Will I ever marry both worlds, or leave one behind? What will emanate from this war? What will fly above water? What fugitive matter am I made of? Unearth the first one Don’t leave anything in the cold Lost in a hidden corner I know I will never rely on the world below to surrender I’ll take the sword by force and turn it against myself Be the knight of my own hell And my own glory Or let the sword fall over my head Be the king of my own health And by its unique poison, The queen of my soul Beside my ghost I suppose I was there But in my soul I swear I wasn’t, but feeding this love like a peaceful fire Now I shall be truly resigned And leave it deep inside The devil may say it is not real but who cares now When I thought I was at the end of my rope Suddenly I was bold And utterly transformed From the deepest core of my being The winged bird has risen, And looked at me without fear