you slipped suicide notes beneath my pillow as i slept and in the morning the sun didn't come up and the sun never came up again everything here reminds me of you and it's getting harder to sleep the sheets on my bed still smell like your skin and it makes me sick, you make me sick, but why did you have to leave? i told you "never die", i told you "never leave" i didn't want you to haunt me, baby you slept in the backyard under the tree i didn't want you to haunt me, baby i don't want you anymore i don't want you anymore while your mother arranged flowers in a vase downstairs i undressed in your room the night was quiet but the sirens blared in the evening gloom i find traces of your footprints on the floor i laugh at things i never would before who are you to make me new? who are you to leave? let's drink to our eternal life and all the things that brought us closer to the sky our endless passion, our endless strife when you pushed me to the edge but never let me fly the curtains open to the streetlight glow i didn't want you to haunt me, baby i wish i could sleep out in the snow, i didn't want you to haunt me, baby i don't want you anymore i don't want you anymore i don't miss you anymore i don't need you anymore