Abandoned 2（弃2）-Rav /Kill Bill
My penmanship slips sloppy as all hell
Both feet dangle from the top of the guardrail
Street fight stance get up off of me dark well
Lost on the road tryin'to find if the star fell
Heavy as barbell his thoughts remained and dipped
Deep in construction but he lost the manuscripts
Break through the skull slide across the candle lit floor
No tellin'what's in store for the bore
Life is a balancing act that I can't keep up
But I'm rollin'with the punches by rollin'a couple trees up
It slows me
The solution turns to problems
Momma told me keep my head out
The clouds I hear it often
Now I'm dead to the world
Where my coffin
Catch me sittin'by the gravity bong
You heard it coughin'
Time to sleep
Seems like it's all that I do
I say I'm down to the death but
I don't talk to my crew
Man I'm with drawin'rippin'a big bong
A tall cup of haven't even made
It people sayin'I'm washed up
Y'all got me f**ked up
Literally
It's puff puff to get to sleep puff puff for energy
I f**ked up
Synergy lost I'm depressed
Feel the world crumble 'round me like it's all for the best
I don't f**k with you lames tryin'to talk and I'm stressed
I'm screamin'f**k the world from the top of my chest
Kill Bill is jinzo and jinzo will kill Bill
He change when the wind blows the windows are still filthy
Fog division the 57split
That's a long division
Cuttin'it back just means
Longer spliff ends
Dead to the medicine
I've been fallin'victim
To my own evil deeds
Deeds deeds deeds
I'm just sittin'in the static of my own frequencies
I ask the voices when they'll stop they all answer Forfeit
Exploring this torment and dormancy it's morbid
Every one of my demons is now
My every fear mocks me It murders me to live in
The living room over dying world that
I wage war with
But I refuse to die in the world that
I was born in
Seeking peace of mind but my mind peace is torture
My existence and I'm trying to resist
It but it's boring
I've seen through their pattern first they
Laugh then run from me
It's like I'm tryin'to sell cigarettes
To these tobacco companies
But why do I insist to make them happy
When I know not
Of happiness myself sitting trapped within my shell
If that act alone don't seem backwards in itself
Then consider all my vices that keep damaging my health
It seems that I'll never reach the vantage on the shelf
And it's not that I can't reach it
I just haven't got the will
So what's the point then
Why seek a partner a house or employment
If you don't ever experience enjoyment
Then all the time you spent just gets flushed down
The toilet
Well
Don't find joy in pricey things clothes cars diamond rings
Y'all keep saying that I've been so dark enlighten me
Every expectation's just so large it frightens me
Tired of this planet but no star's inviting me
You tell me to speak up but
When I open up you hide from me
You're all happy or just all trying to lie to me
And so my dark refinery's still functionin'
Tryin'to punch through the walls 'cause I hope
To discover lots of cameras
Rav this was a hoax
This was all a ruse to you're worthy
Now you can live happily but the fact actually is
I'm still livin'on a planet
Where my self-interests don't matter
Where my selfishness won't vanish
I'm still abandoned
Still livin'on a planet
Where my self-interests don't matter
Where my selfishness won't vanish
I'm still abandoned