[ti:I Wonder]
[ar:Gowe/Erin Kim]
[al:We are Hypergiants]
[00:20.38]uh,gowe ,Gifted Of West East,
[00:24.26]this song is a dedicated
[00:25.70]to a very special woman
[00:27.83]who had me at the tender age of eighteen
[00:30.58]I never had a chance to see you
[00:32.59]this is a dedicated to you
[00:34.60]My Ma
[00:36.81]This is her story(Check it out)
[00:40.68]Verse 1
[00:40.68]Her mind was confused with a plus at the tip of the tube
[00:43.55]Sick as she threw up with a cup take a sip of abuse
[00:46.36]So she gets nervous cause her man left her
[00:49.53]After the sex and he jets she thought that he loved her
[00:52.19]You see shes 18, and shes a bit conscious
[00:54.92]About her dress and the reflection of her own image
[00:57.86]Timid in speech, shes limited given a week
[01:00.35]With her tummy blowing up so that people can see
[01:03.34]But she decides to keep it, said no to abortion
[01:06.26]The feet kicks in her stomach comes without a warning
[01:09.60]She feels the pain though, cause her parents cry
[01:11.93]And the shame eats her alive when she closed her eyes
[01:14.73]Then the day comes, she gives birth to a son
[01:17.70]Kim Sung-Hoon, soon she holds and kisses her love
[01:20.40]Wishing it never ended, taking a mental picture
[01:23.33]Hoping through her tears that her son would have a better future
[01:26.70]Chorus
[01:26.70]I wonder if theres a smile on your face
[01:30.93]Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace
[01:36.57]I never could thank you, enough for holding on
[01:42.73]Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart
[01:49.55]Verse 2
[01:49.55]So she wonders, what happened to her son next
[01:51.92]Is there clothes on his back, food on his plate whats the context
[01:54.68]The recollection of the day replays in her mindset
[01:57.24]And the ways she would try but just never could forget
[02:00.24]Well he’s okay, and he resides in the states
[02:03.12]A needle in space in which rain makes it a beautiful place
[02:05.99]Embraced by the culture and he’s loved by all the members
[02:08.53]Until he turns 18 and his world get flipped
[02:11.39]He hears that his mom is not actually his and that complications
[02:14.65]Prevented her from having any kids and his real mom
[02:18.60]Is actually Korean and she had, to give him up for adoption
[02:21.68]Cause she was young and was a student
[02:23.34]Lost and was confused and, wrestling in the moment
[02:25.90]Am I Chinese or Korean? Am I destined in this union?
[02:28.58]And if I am what’s the purpose? I jot it in my verses
[02:31.53]So I replay it in my mind as I think about you
[02:34.25]Chorus
[02:34.25]I wonder if theres a smile on your face
[02:39.66]Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace
[02:45.17]I never could thank you, enough for holding on
[02:51.16]Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart
[02:58.50]Verse 3
[02:58.50]If I could write a letter, and know that you would read it
[03:00.54]I would tell you that I never once in my heart felt hatred
[03:03.36]Reinstated I would play a song and dance with you
[03:06.24]Hold your hand as I thank the Lord for creating you
[03:09.12]As strong as you are cause in my mind I can’t fathom
[03:11.97]The pain and the guilt when all you heard was their gossip
[03:14.76]And still you stuck through it, when they called you foolish
[03:17.57]And with this gift that I possess your probably loved music
[03:20.59]I hope you’re doing well, I hope some day you’ll see this
[03:23.45]I hope I mean I really hope that you know Jesus on a deeper level
[03:27.12]Seeking just to know Him better, I hope in perfect timing we can
[03:30.76]See the reason clearer, I hope you’re smiling now
[03:33.48]I hope I cross your mind, I hope you never second guess
[03:36.14]If what you did was right, cause I’m so proud of you
[03:38.98]I love and admire you, so after all these years this is my way of telling you
[03:42.87]Chorus (x2)
[03:42.87]I wonder if theres a smile on your face
[03:48.26]Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace
[03:53.39]I never could thank you, enough for holding on
[03:59.86]Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart
[04:06.19]I wonder if theres a smile on your face
[04:10.94]Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace
[04:16.63]I never could thank you, enough for holding on
[04:22.69]Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart