[ti:Lose One Friend]
[ar:Hotel Books]
[al:]
[00:02.00]Watching muscles ache from the stress in your back
[00:05.38]Waiting for bones to break from the weight of what you lack.
[00:08.77]I would spend all my time helping you find truth,
[00:12.15]And it really cuts like a knife knowing I can't save you.
[00:15.68]Because saying goodbye hurts the worst when you know it's the final word
[00:19.86]It comes across like a curse and I can't believe you said it first
[00:25.24]So now the final word on the final page
[00:28.02]of the final chapter of this narrative we made
[00:31.06]Is my weak conscious whispering words through my mouth,
[00:34.89]the very words I prayed would never come out.
[00:38.28]I kept clinging onto the past and hoped the future would be the same,
[00:43.25]We would cry and laugh knowing the past would not remain
[00:47.44]And I would argue with God, every night I would lie awake
[00:52.80]And lie to myself, hoping all of this was fake.
[00:56.62]Because I got a new perspective on general anesthetics
[01:00.35]When you finally went to see Jesus,
[01:02.64]and all your family learned how to believe in a void,
[01:06.32]because that's all that they could see in us.
[01:09.61]Cigarette smoke and broken words,
[01:12.35]My heard became the platform for everything they hated the most,
[01:16.48]And I stayed clear of the lack,
[01:18.67]Hoping somebody would come by and cut this rope.
[01:22.45]Your apartment got so empty when you moved to that city with the streets of gold
[01:27.87]And I know what you meant when you said this room can grow so terribly cold
[01:34.35]And I wrestled with the idea of taking your place,
[01:38.28]But I know that if anyone deserves a break from this world of pain,
[01:43.36]It's you, it's not me.
[01:49.73]And I'm still asleep.
[02:12.82]It's not about being there for me, it's about respecting me enough
[02:17.28]to tell me why you're not.
[02:19.17]So I'll just slip back into my sleep,
[02:21.61]There's a demon in my casket and I think that we've fallen in love,
[02:26.19]and most nights, I wish it was you.