[00:04.79]Harry’s staring at his chicken
[00:06.60]He’s trying hard to listen without hating
[00:09.38]But everything David says
[00:11.13]Seems to make him like him less
[00:13.88]His little brother Pete is waiting
[00:15.41]For the appropriate place to say
[00:17.11]‘Oh right, yeah’
[00:18.53]And make an interested face
[00:21.85]Miriam feels distant
[00:23.73]She knows her sons are trying hard
[00:25.33]But trying hard
[00:26.70]Just increases the friction
[00:27.88]It’s never been tense like this
[00:30.31]Harry looks around at his mother’s new kitchen
[00:32.44]And can’t help but think of his dad
[00:34.96]Alone in that house where they all used to live
[00:37.34]Putting his half pint of semi-skimmed
[00:39.37]Back into the fridge
[00:40.91]Dad
[00:41.52]With his silent ways
[00:42.85]And his smiling face
[00:44.15]No romance, just basic
[00:45.99]Straight forwards, no frills, no fuss
[00:48.42]But at least he was a man you could trust
[00:51.85]Not like this guy, this David
[00:54.69]Face like a pill head at the end of a rave
[00:56.38]Staring at my mum like he wants to be saved
[00:58.49]Harry feels weak today, he can’t take it
[01:00.65]And he doesn’t know it but he’s glaring
[01:01.97]Thinking of Becky
[01:02.77]And why he insisted on sharing
[01:04.14]So much with a stranger
[01:05.36]He feels a faint sense of danger
[01:06.91]Ashamed that he’d made a
[01:08.21]Fool of himself, he’s an idiot
[01:09.53]Sees it in his mind’s eye, insidious
[01:11.25]Him, spilling out his guts like a suicidal shogun
[01:13.67]Looking for deliverance
[01:15.53]Dithering fool feeling silly and hopelessly broken
[01:17.25]Blithering on while she was smoking
[01:19.40]What was he thinking?
[01:20.21]Heart opening up like it was blinking
[01:21.15]Becky. He feels her name, it’s heavy
[01:24.01]Don’t forget me
[01:25.19]Snap back to the room
[01:26.79]He flinches at the image
[01:28.76]Miriam is finishing her wine
[01:30.40]And Pete is asking for the spinach
[01:33.76]‘Er, how’s work, Harry?’
[01:36.14]David’s features are tipped towards him
[01:38.37]‘Fine, thanks,’ Harry looks up, ‘exhausting.’
[01:41.10]‘Yes,’ David smiles, ‘but hard work is always rewarding.’
[01:45.17]Even David’s enthusiasm is boring
[01:48.62]‘How long have you worked there?’ he asks
[01:50.73]And Harry thinks of all them years he’s spent
[01:52.75]Scheming and shotting
[01:53.87]‘Little while, now. To be honest, I’ve forgotten.’
[01:56.38]‘Oh yes, well time does fly in the work place,’
[02:00.17]David smiles, nodding
[02:01.54]All he ever wanted to be was good enough
[02:04.56]All he ever wanted to say was the right thing
[02:05.34]But as long as you live for the way you’re perceived
[02:07.66]You will never create, only bite things
[02:09.20]All he ever wanted to do was the done thing
[02:11.62]All he ever wanted to make was the grade
[02:12.75]But as long as you live for other people’s opinions
[02:15.33]You’ll never be more than afraid
[02:16.42]All he ever wanted to be was good enough
[02:18.65]All he ever wanted to say was the right thing
[02:20.42]But as long as you live for the way you’re perceived
[02:22.50]You will never create, only bite things
[02:24.34]All he ever wanted to do was the done thing
[02:26.05]All he ever wanted to make was the grade
[02:28.10]But as long as you live for other people’s opinions
[02:31.08]You’ll never be more than afraid