tomorrow I am leaving for Baltimore you think I act like Harry Potter like you're Voldemort I don't care what you said you didn't mean it like I did don't even start with me turn up the heat, turn up the heat or get out the kitchen you're like vegan cheese! try as I might, you never melt for me it wasn't quite as funny at the time now in ten minutes I will be ten minutes away part of me thinks I should go back to the folk-punk house and stay everybody was so nice there there were lots of heavy things that stayed in place and I wish that this was more like that but when you feel held back, you slip away and really, I get that sometimes i also feel that way but I'm older now and I know this now it's a game and I can't play because I shoot for the impossible knowing that it won't come and you'd think I would know better now that I am twenty one I've been bored, I've been so bored and I've been numb and dumb and I'm still pretty young besides I'm really getting so adept at preventing my own happiness complacency breeds latency in that space it sits deep in my chest and the thing that beats beneath your breast, has been at rest but I try my best to see how close I can get to it because I get productive when I get upset, hey so now in ten minutes I will be ten minutes away part of me thinks I should leave right now but I sit back and wait I've been bored, I've been so bored and I've been looking for a little bit of heartache but tomorrow I am leaving for Baltimore where it won't bother me not in Baltimore tomorrow I am leaving for Baltimore once more