You will never be let down by anyone
More than you will be let down
By the one you love most in the world
It`s how gravity works
It`s why they call it "falling"
It`s why the truth is harder to tell
Every year you have more to lose
But you can bury your past in the garden by the tulips
Water it until it`s so alive
It lets you go
And you belong to yourself again
When you belong to yourself again
Remember forgiveness
Is not a tidy grave
It is a ready loyal knight kneeling before your royal heart
Call in your royal heart
Tell it bravery can never be measured by a lack of fear
It takes guts to tremble
It takes so much tremble to love
Every first date is a fucking earth quake
Sweetheart, on our first date
I showed off all my therapy
I flaunted the couch
Where I finally sweat out my history
I pulled out the photo album from the last time I wore a lie to the school dance
I smiled and said "that was never my style
Look how fixed I am
Look how there`s no more drywall on my fist
Look how my wrist is not something I have to hide", I said
Well I was hiding it
The telephone pole still down from the storm
By our third date I had fixed the line
I said listen, I have a hard time
I mean I cry as often as most people pee
And I don`t shut the door behind me
I`ll be up in your face screaming
"SEATTLE IS TOO RAINY SEATTLE IS TOO RAINY
IM NEVER GOING TO BE ABLE TO LIVE HERE."
I sobbed on our fourth date
I can`t live here
In my body, I mean
I can`t live in my body all the time
It feels too much
So if I ever feel far away know I am not gone
I am just underneath my grief
Adjusting the dial on my radio face
So I can take this life with all of it`s love and all of it`s loss
Because I already know
You are the place I`m gonna finally sing without any static meaning
I`m never gonna wait that extra twenty minutes
To text you back
And I’m never gonna play hard to get
When I know your life has been hard enough already
When we all know everyone`s life has been hard enough already
It`s hard to watch
The game we make of love
like everyone`s playing checkers with their scars
Saying "checkmate"
Whenever they get out without a broken heart
Just to be clear
I don`t want to get out without a broken heart
I intend to leave this life so shattered
There`d better be a thousand separate heavens
For all of my flying parts
And none of those parts are gonna be wearing the romance
From the overpriced vintage rack
I don`t want a single speed bike if I can`t make it up the hill
I know exactly how many gears I`m going to need to love you well
And none of them look hip at the hot coffee shop
They all have God saying
"Good job, you`re finally not full of bullshit"
You finally met someone who`s going to flatten your knee caps into skipping stones
Baby, throw me
Throw me as far as I can go
I don`t wanna leave this life without ever having come home
And I wanna come home to you
I can figure out the rain