Darkness comes beneath the dying stars

With all the blood and scars
My mouth will hunt you

With fear - I appear

Nothing will stop me
You crave the creature in me

Shattered  I will capture you

So run

My family don't understand what I go through
Under diagnosed for 20 years  ain't never broke through
You ever been in such a fog you don't know you
Never being able to do the shit you're supposed to
I wouldn't wish it on anyone that I'm close to
Wouldn't wish it on anybody that I'm opposed to

There's not an accurate diagnosis to show you
Basic neurobiology isn't close to it

I'm watching life as a spectator
I can't help myself  even though I possessed data

It's not a part of my spirit to want to test nature
You think you know what I'm feeling  cousin  then let's wager
I'm having trouble retaining new information
Familiar scenes starting to look foreign- derealization

Everybody tired of being patient

Mama wondering why her baby crying in the basement

Constant rumination just exacerbates it
To the point where I can't even barely narrate it
I've had doctors tell me that my mind is fascinating
But they can't tell me why the sickness has been activated
Darkness comes beneath the dying stars

With all the blood and scars

My mouth will hunt you

With fear - I appear
Nothing will stop me

You crave the creature in me

Shattered  I will capture you

So run
My head don't work  the meds don't work

But I don't want to be dead  dead don't work
Sleep's the cousin of death  the bed don't work
Maybe I'd rather be dead; dead don't hurt

Realization of an inherent emptiness

Maybe that's another sin for the pessimist

Possibly I am a jinn with a exorcist

I've fallen because I've been on the precipice

Maybe it's my mama's possible regret

Maybe it's a neurological neglect

Maybe it's the reason why water's wet
The angular gyrus and where the frontal lobe connect

But maybe I'm being too complicated for you

Maybe I should just be calm and explain it to you
The psychiatrist thinking they could fool you
Paxil  Zoloft  it's just wasteful to you

I've tried meditation  tried to sit in silence

But how the fuck that help a neurochemical imbalance
Why would you tell a person that they were childish
Without an understanding of the pain that they surround in

I always feel foggy somatic detatchment

It's like my body isn't connected to actions

It destroys everything that's affected the fragments
I don't have nothing but senses and sadness

Darkness comes beneath the dying stars

With all the blood and scars

My mouth will hunt you
With fear - I appear

Nothing will stop me

You crave the creature in me

Shattered  I will capture you
So run