Blue October
Miscellaneous
Schizophrenia
A silver plated numbing gum 
And Jesus resting on my thumb 
A hard to reach malaria 
I've got the mood that seems to scare ya 
I'm paranoid
self destroyed 
Believe me lord I'm sorry 
I've got the mood that seems to carry ya out 
I've got the nightmare called 
Schizophrenia 

I cry, I cry and I don't know why 
The fever becomes my home
I cry. I cry and I don't know why 
The fever becomes my home 
Becomes my home 

I love it when you're holding me 
You have a gentle way of calming
I haven't felt that way since 1993, 
When my mother held me. 
I bet you're waiting for the long sob story 
Of how I was mistreated again 
No, I wasn't built that way
I was strong and desperatley brave, 
And I didn't mean to scare ya
Schizophrenia. 

I cry, I cry and I don't know why 
The fever becomes my home
I cry. I cry and I don't know why 
The fever becomes my home 
Becomes my home 

I cry, I cry and I don't know why 
I cry. I cry and I don't know why 
It becomes my home
It becomes my home
The fever becomes my home 
Becomes my home