[00:11.45]Last week I had a thought I'm 20 years
[00:14.12]Thats old enough to start imagining and plenty fears
[00:16.85]Or will I go cause I dont fit in here with any peers
[00:19.54]Know theres more to life than smokin weed and drinkin many beers
[00:22.83]And partyin but what else to do
[00:25.25]When the allure of the fame isn’t helping you
[00:27.96]Wish I could tell Jay-Z I see myself in you
[00:30.22]I started with a dream and now I'm tryna be wealthy too
[00:33.65]But its tough when your balancin it all
[00:35.85]And walkin down a tight rope you balance bought to fall
[00:38.76]The label's keep tellin me I'm talented and all
[00:41.16]But I need another candy girl to really have it all
[00:44.92]I'm hungrier than ever for a check
[00:46.86]And plus my situations not at all what you'd expect
[00:49.67]I work my ass off, I'm always stickin out my neck
[00:52.17]Cause they say the real currency ain't cash but respect
[00:55.79]But if you have one without the other
[00:57.95]That means that you're a stupid motherfucker
[01:00.50]I hate bein broke, but havin all the fame
[01:02.92]And not havin to deal and have to be the blame
[01:05.56]I wanna win bread and bring it home so after all we can live right
[01:09.37]And give half of it to mom just to get right
[01:12.20]And just to prove to her, I know she wasn't psycho
[01:14.57]For always supportin this dream, she was right though
[01:17.87]But its tough when life's as stormy as the weather
[01:20.40]And her health isn't gettin any better
[01:22.11]And everydays a struggle, the most recent trouble was her job
[01:25.59]She called me cryin, told me she was layed off, God
[01:28.86]But she told me, keep my spirits up high
[01:31.00]She workin I'll just keep on pushin aimin for the sky
[01:33.80]And people wonder why I spend everyday high
[01:36.30]Cause my life isn't how its supposed to be, but I try
[01:39.88]Keep feelin that I'm livin life wrong
[01:42.19]But then I stop trippin as soon as I hit the bong
[01:44.91]I go out to the club, pretend my problems all gone
[01:47.29]I see chicks at my shows, know the words to my songs
[01:50.73]My new girl told me "G" please promise me
[01:53.80]If we gon' be together, you gon' have to give me honesty
[01:56.49]And honestly I'm tryin baby listen
[01:58.42]But it's bitches everyday that see your spot is where they wanna be
[02:01.98]I'm tryna do the best that I can for you
[02:04.57]I feel that you deserve that and I care for you
[02:07.19]Cause while a groupie might love you when your big
[02:09.65]Soon as the fame goes, they ain't there for you real
[02:12.40]A rappers girlfriend, bad spot for a wife
[02:15.18]And this is just to give a snap shot of my life
[02:17.94]For all you haters gossipin and speakin all freely
[02:20.73]Feelin like you know me cause you listen to my CD
[02:23.49]Because I'm in the lime light, you can go and start
[02:26.26]A bunch of fuckin rumors, shit is rippin me apart
[02:29.40]On one hand I don’t give a shit, the other one I’m sick of it
[02:31.78]This is just to tell you what the business is, this is it
[02:35.24]This is it, yea I'm sick of it
[02:37.68]See my biggest problem is that I give a shit
[02:40.32]If I ain't care I swear I'd probably be fine
[02:42.85]But its that, this shit is killin my mind
[02:46.64]Damn
[02:50.62]And that's real
[02:54.10]This is me