.
Staring at the walls to pass the time
(Pinch myself, make sure I'm still alive)
I'm not alright, it's become a disguise
(Friends and family, I'm losing all ties)
Staring at the walls to pass the time
(Pinch myself, make sure I'm still alive)
(I've been here before)
I will survive
(Another month under gray skies)

(Another month under these gray skies)
.
I'm holding on as tight as I can

The monotony never seems to end
Every day feels the same
Every day I think about,
The place I'd rather be than here
.
I've been here before
I will survive another month under these gray skies
I've been here before
I will survive another month under these gray skies
.
We've carried each other, through and over the seas
Over seas
.
We live for nights like this
The ones we won't forget
Forever remember
We live for nights like this
The ones we won't forget
Forever remember
.
I hope to open my eyes, to see this picture
I'm throwing it all away
I hope to open my eyes, to see this moment
That I should treasure forever
.
Staring at the walls to pass the time
(Pinch myself, make sure I'm still alive)
I'm not alright, it's become a disguise
(Friends and family, I'm losing all ties)
I'm holding on as tight as I can
(Coming home, I don't know when)
I'm holding on as tight as I can, I swear
.
My dearest love, I woke up tired today
Even more so than yesterday
How that's possible, I don't even know
Nor do I want to
It's hard to find the motivation when you are this drained
My body aches, but I'm used to feeling this way
Seventeen down, seventeen to go
That's not so bad, right?
I think of home often, and of you even more
Yesterday I saw the sun shining
It appeared for a few minutes, just after two
For a moment I found myself smiling
As if those short rays of light were enough to get me by
Maybe that was enough
Thank God, I needed that
.
For a moment I found myself smiling
As if those short rays of light were enough to get me by
Maybe that was enough
Thank God, I surely needed that

I surely needed that

Thank God, I surely needed that
.