[00:00.000] 作词 : Jesse Friedman
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Jesse Friedman
[00:22.693]Mamma in the halfway house, new man every night
[00:25.437]Always find wrong in everything, shit is never right
[00:27.948]Homie locked down in a cell, I own every right
[00:30.443]Does doing wrong things for the right reason make it right?
[00:32.940]Seeing loved ones hurting bad, homie, that’s hard
[00:35.453]Mamma throwing shit at your dad and gettin’ slapped hard
[00:37.952]Mamma’s new boyfriend hangin’ in the backyard
[00:40.447]And I mean literally hangin’ in the backyard
[00:42.701]Had a crush on this girl when I was like nine or ten
[00:45.185]Fast forward, her brother ended up killin’ my friend
[00:47.953]I was scared of the world so I would live in my bed
[00:50.688]Now I get money, I just live in the bands
[00:53.200]Drinkin’ to numb the pain, the pain still remains
[00:55.938]Had my homie laying lifeless, h****n in his veins
[00:58.446]The grass is always greener but that’s probably ’cause it rains
[01:00.946]On the other side more, so I probably shouldn’t complain
[01:03.196]A lot up on my mind, it can’t fit in my brain
[01:05.945]If you knew all of my thoughts, you would call me insane
[01:08.457]Blood is thicker than water but I live in a drought
[01:10.939]The things that kills us the things that we can not live without
[01:13.700]My cousin was a good kid, died from a bullet
[01:16.196]Meanwhile 6ix9ine beggin’ for someone to pull it
[01:18.700]I ain’t have a role model on how to treat a women
[01:21.444]Had to teach myself what the **** my father couldn’t
[01:23.955]We act like suicide and anxiety not a part of society
[01:26.442]People die before they get the sobriety
[01:28.945]I don’t rap for the money or the damn notoriety
[01:31.695]I don’t talk lately, nah, I been movin’ quietly
[01:34.208]I know my people proud of me, everyone lookin’ down on me
[01:36.944]I was sinnin’, now I got these angels surrounding me
[01:39.439]Chasin’ this dream, no time to be cowardly
[01:41.201]Thanks to my fans for allowing me
[01:44.443]Saw my parents poppin’ pills, followed in their footsteps
[01:46.945]Took a couple steps back every time I took steps
[01:49.690]People make life way harder than it has to
[01:52.186]Get caught in a ****ed up cycle, life past you
[01:54.691]Kids dyin’ in the streets, now it’s a classroom
[01:57.202]There’s a lot, God, that I really want to ask you
[01:59.703]I know you real, but sometimes you make me question it
[02:02.440]The kid killed seventeen people ‘fore they arrested him
[02:04.702]Seeing your dad OD in the kitchen
[02:07.197]The stove is still hot, mashed potatoes with the chicken
[02:09.939]When people love you, why they always try to keep shit hittin’
[02:12.435]So many lives lost to alcohol and addiction
[02:15.196]You ever see your dad crush his pills and he snortin’ it?
[02:17.693]If you look the other way, that means that you ignoring it
[02:18.953]Which means that you supportin’ it
[02:20.190]These rappers just recordin’ shit
[02:22.693]Put it on the internet, companies endorsin’ it
[02:24.941]If you have to question it, you don’t know what depression is
[02:27.196]So many times I thought I learned my lesson, I never did
[02:29.691]Provide for your family by any means
[02:32.455]If I ain’t rap, probably could’ve died in these streets
[02:34.200]Mamma always throwin’ shit
[02:35.435]Plus she always throwin’ fits
[02:38.193]Wanna break down and cry but we just hold it in
[02:40.703]Scared to show emotions ’cause our fathers never showed us it
[02:43.188]We do the same things to our kids and we don’t notice it
[02:45.688]Always do the wrong thing with the right intentions
[02:48.192]I don’t do the “internet talkin'”, stay out my mentions
[02:50.694]Brother got arrested, could’ve been a blessin’
[02:53.185]Someone could’ve died without even second guessing
[02:55.698]The world that I’m alone in, tears that I’m soaked in
[02:58.451]Got a bad temper, it’s gettin’ hard to control it
[03:00.689]Sometimes you can’t be there for someone that you love
[03:02.693]Because they’re too lost in the drugs
[03:03.937]Survival