[00:15.280]Yeah, look
[00:16.850]Let me tell you about a kid named Steven
[00:18.660]He's slowly running out of things to believe in
[00:20.730]Every couple of months his mom leaves him,
[00:22.840]for no good reason his step-dad beats him
[00:24.960]Not too many friends, only ever had a few of them,
[00:26.880]but recently they don't want anything to do with him
[00:29.060]Always eating lunch in the bathroom stall,
[00:30.990]he just wants to feel normal and be cool again, yeah
[00:33.110]Always feeling like the outcast, he's been going crazy ever since his dad passed
[00:36.960]He needs guidance and advice but instead
[00:38.860]he only has breakdowns and flashbacks of the car crash uh
[00:41.350]It's been getting harder everyday, if he was still around everything would be ok
[00:45.300]Cuz his dad was always the light at the end of the tunnel,
[00:47.540]but now that same damn tunnel is looking dark and grey
[00:50.030]He keeps quiet in the back of the class
[00:51.770]and when the bell rings Steven hurries home fast
[00:53.630]scared to death the other kids will kick his ass on the long walk home
[00:56.860]cuz its happened in the past so
[00:58.360]He's getting used to the black eyes and fat lips
[01:00.190]but all he's got is a fake smile and cut wrists
[01:02.430]Wishin' he could walk right up to them and show them the scars
[01:04.570]and say look you're the reason that I've done this
[01:06.840]Maybe they would finally understand and go back to how it was before it all began
[01:10.070]But he's just a little different so they taunt him and they beat him
[01:12.560]Yeah it's all just fun and games, they don't give a damn, yeah
[01:14.800]His older brother ain't around, in and out of jail, hanging with the wrong crowd
[01:18.110]He's been doing coke, smoking weed, getting drunk all his life he's a shame
[01:21.220]no, he's not too proud
[01:22.520]Now his habits are rubbing off on his little bro yeah, but guess what?
[01:26.090]Little did he know that everytime he did a line,
[01:28.080]everytime he lit a joint,
[01:29.070]everytime he took a shot he was sippin mode
[01:30.870]So Steven's sitting in his room getting high now
[01:32.990]Doors locked, music up, with his lights out
[01:34.980]He just takes another tote til his room fills with smoke
[01:36.970]5-6-7 hours til he knocks out
[01:39.270]Now he started stealing pills from his mom
[01:41.200]8-9-10 at a time and now they're gone
[01:42.920]and maybe for a moment all his problems seem to fade,
[01:45.040]but the high fades too after not too long
[01:47.150]and that's when it really sinks in and that's when it hits him
[01:49.330]that these god damn drugs won't fix him
[01:51.440]Curled up on the floor, can't take it anymore
[01:53.250]Now he's talking to God cuz he's the only one that gets him
[01:55.490]On his knees, looking up, can't stop crying
[01:57.850]"God I know we haven't talked in a long time
[01:59.770]but this time I really need you. Please God help me, say something
[02:02.650]just give me a sign, because now I'm falling apart and
[02:04.770]I don't think that I can do it. Please God, give me the strength
[02:07.070]to pull through it. Tell me, Should I give up? I could end it all right now.
[02:10.050]I just don't know if I'm brave enough to do it.
[02:12.290]Cuz there's gotta be a better way than suicide.
[02:14.680]Try to wait it out, give it time, you'll be fine.
[02:16.670]But it's been so long and I still haven't been able to get rid
[02:19.410]of all the thoughts that I feel inside. So sick, so angry, so mad
[02:22.900]and to top it off no one even knows that"
[02:24.950]That's when he stood up, wiped his tears, walked over to his desk
[02:27.680]and got a pen and a notepad
[02:29.170]He just couldn't see it getting any better
[02:31.140]So on a cold dark night in December, Steven knew exactly what he had to do
[02:35.000]But first he sat down and wrote a couple letters
[02:37.110]One to his step-dad, one to his mother,
[02:39.170]couple to the kids at school, one to his brother
[02:41.340]Bringing them the pain that they once brought him tear drops on the paper one after another
[02:45.900]Yeah, I hope that you all feel guilty.
[02:47.780]Cuz I'm broken now and you can't heal me
[02:49.890]And now you're all an accompliss in murder
[02:51.820]each and every one of you has chipped in to kill me
[02:53.940]So the reason that I'm writing you this evening,
[02:55.980]is to say goodbye and to tell you that I'm leaving
[02:58.100]But don't hold your breath cuz I ain't never coming back
[03:00.340]Sincerely yours, Steven