[00:06.034]I feel like I've been gone for a long time
[00:09.276]My body's present but I cannot find my mind
[00:12.482]I used to love feeling everything inside
[00:15.577]But I'm afraid the well's run dry
[00:18.085]
[00:18.227]Every time I get a second to myself
[00:21.058]I can't help but give it up to someone else
[00:24.301]My brain is like a cavernous empty shell
[00:27.252]And I'm lost inside
[00:30.178]
[00:30.320]What is going on?
[00:33.737]Where has my heart gone?
[00:36.604]I miss the sun
[00:40.847]
[00:40.983]I paint a smile on my face, I keep my hands busy
[00:47.981]I try to trick myself but I know I am not okay
[00:53.510]I'm breaking under the weight, of the guilt filling up my plate
[00:59.875]
[01:00.016]I feel myself fading away
[01:04.300]
[01:17.386]I just wanna be left all alone
[01:20.769]Don't wanna say yes
[01:22.209]Don't wanna say no
[01:23.529]Don't wanna hear a sound anywhere I go
[01:26.511]The pain is too much, just let me be alone
[01:29.450]
[01:29.592]It hurts me to stay, it kills me to go
[01:32.331]Letting you down, hurts more than you know
[01:35.415]And I could never be, all that you want
[01:38.401]And it's been tearing me apart
[01:42.026]
[01:42.189]What is going on?
[01:44.953]Why am I so numb?
[01:47.709]I miss the sun
[01:51.130]
[01:51.290]I paint a smile on my face, I keep my hands busy
[01:58.710]I try to trick myself but I know I am not okay
[02:04.573]I'm breaking under the weight, of the guilt filling up my plate
[02:10.756]I feel myself fading away
[02:15.150]
[02:15.320]And I know I can't keep living this way
[02:24.144]All these sleepless nights and wasted days
[02:29.308]I know what's to come if I don't change
[02:35.409]I'll soon have faded away
[02:40.208]
[02:40.586]I think of everyone else
[02:46.317]But no one's there for me
[02:49.196]I've got to love myself
[02:51.685]And tell them I am not okay
[02:55.152]I'm buried under the shame
[02:58.038]And there's nobody else to blame
[03:01.096]I feel myself fading away
[03:05.286]I won't let myself fade away