[00:00.000] 作词 : XAM
[00:01.000] 作曲 : XAM/Axel Turunen/Joona Pietikainen
[00:04.375] I should have focused on the love
[00:09.784] I should have focused on the love
[00:13.519] And my health before the fame
[00:14.482] I should have told somebody how I felt
[00:16.412] Instead of tightening the belt around my neck
[00:17.938] I should have asked for help
[00:20.133] But I’ve been asking myself everyday
[00:22.357] If it’s too late for me to make a change
[00:24.046] They say the grass is greener on the other side
[00:26.184] But I took a look at mine and it looked dry
[00:29.346] I guess they lied or maybe I am colorblind
[00:31.162] Or maybe I forgot to give it water and I let it die
[00:33.865] ‘Cos that’s what I do with everything important in my life
[00:36.303] Yeah, I make it disappear
[00:38.885] I hide the evidence and act like it was never here
[00:41.743] I pack my backpack and put it on my back real fast and leave
[00:44.143] The murder scene behind my back and never looking back at my past again
[00:48.221] Yeah, I really need a friend
[00:50.606] I really need someone that I can let inside my head
[00:53.539] I’m in hell
[00:54.501] Help!
[00:55.406] I’m lonely and afraid
[00:56.678] I really need somebody by my side until the end
[00:58.370] ‘Cos nobody ever taught me how to deal with depression
[01:05.150] So I’m doing this my way without any lessons
[01:10.830] I’m writing down my thoughts into my book of confessions
[01:16.238] And then I'm reading them out loud at my therapy sessions
[01:23.163] But It’s not working and I don’t know why
[01:26.560] Maybe I was made to be unhappy ‘til the day I die
[01:29.435] Or maybe my only purpose in life is to hate being alive
[01:33.210] ‘Cos every single second of my life feels like a waste of time
[01:36.392] I got bad thoughts on my mind and It's my fault I know
[01:39.334] I should have never closed my eyes and gone blind I know
[01:41.910] I should have never lied to myself everytime that I said
[01:45.050] ”I’ll be fine” ‘cos I'm not fine
[01:46.245] I don’t even know if I’m alive anymore
[01:48.825] ‘Cos nobody ever taught me how to deal with depression
[01:54.009] So I’m doing this my way without any lessons
[02:00.761] I’m writing down my thoughts into my book of confessions
[02:06.429] And then I'm reading them out loud at my therapy sessions
[02:12.860] ‘Cos nobody ever taught me how to deal with depression
[02:18.886] So I’m doing this my way without any lessons
[02:24.105] I’m writing down my thoughts into my book of confessions
[02:30.039] And then I'm reading them out loud at my therapy sessions