[00:00.000] 作词 : Benjamin Lasky
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Benjamin Lasky
[00:25.574] I swear, they only love me when i’m not there
[00:31.633] I know you trust me but I don’t care
[00:36.722] I swear, that I don’t care
[00:40.440] I know you love me but I don’t care
[00:43.368] You know I was born up at the top floor
[00:45.580] But I came out at a basement
[00:47.638] Mom wanted me to be a doctor
[00:49.713] But I came out as a patient
[00:51.814] Now I get a thousand DMs everyday, I had a fan telling me that I saved him
[00:56.097] Saying that he loving everything I make and I couldn’t take a single second out my day to make his
[01:00.287] I’m just getting number every time I see my numbers
[01:02.170] Every time I see the bottom
[01:03.124] Every time we see each other
[01:04.182] Every time I pop a bottle
[01:05.268] Every time I hit the lotto
[01:06.347] Every time I see tomorrow
[01:07.530] I just really want another
[01:08.562] I’m just stuck between the gutter
[01:09.631] In the rain, it ain't pain, that i’m feeling, but it’s something in the same kinda vein, that i’m healing from, I wonder why I feel so little, cuz I ain’t been on the top I think i’m somewhere in the middle
[01:17.359] I swear, they only love me when i’m not there
[01:23.550] I know you trust me but I don’t care
[01:28.615] I swear, that I don’t care
[01:32.467] I know you love me but I don’t care
[01:35.728] So what, so uh, So a, hole in my soul, that shit looking like a donut (Yuh)
[01:39.716] You and me can laugh together
[01:41.447] But I don’t think that thats gonna put it back together
[01:43.754] I’ve been living like I’m stuck under the covers
[01:45.434] I know this’ll make em proud, but I know they gone need another and another and another and another and another like i’m DJ Khalid with a mother ****ing stutter (‘Kay, yuh)
[01:53.243] Today I woke up, grabbed my phone to check the gram I started scrolling
[01:56.669] Got a message from a dude without a profile picture, shit was long as ****, I thought that he was trolling
[02:00.689] So I tried to swipe it out but accidentally must of opened, I said **** it, guess I’ll read it, now that’s it already loaded, had a sudden premonition, but it faded in the moment so I focused, started reading, lemme try my best to quote as he wrote it, it said
[02:11.005] “My homie was a huge ****ing fan, used to play your shit everyday. He struggled with depression and he told me that the music was the thing that always set him straight. But I guess it must of gotten to much, for him, killed himself a couple months back, it’s felt so ****ing long. But it reminded me of him when you popped up on my page and I went and started listening to a couple songs so..
[02:27.469] Keep doing you bro.”
[02:28.732] He followed up with a post from his friend, it was a screenshot of my track, I, clicked the profile full of R.I.Ps and the comments, shit I couldn’t even stomach looking at but all the sudden, in the instant everything felt grimmer. Read the name again and realized it sounded familiar
[02:40.070] Clicked the DM, to see if he had talked to me before
[02:42.309] Saw this was the same kid I consciously ignored a couple months ago..
[02:45.900] I swear, they only love me when i’m not there
[02:52.192] I know you trust me but I don’t care
[02:56.959] I swear, that I don’t care
[03:00.822] I know you love me but I don’t care