Had to lose it all, to find myself Lost my heart and my soul and my health Shut the **** up you dont know what ive felt Yeah ive been on my lonely had to it myself Had to lose it all, to find myself Lost my heart and my soul and my health Shut the **** up you dont know what ive felt Yeah ive been on my lonely had to it myself I ll buy your lies i swear im your top consumer And ive been tryna smile alot but its not for humor Its a mask to hide the pain thats rooted in me like tumors If a doctors finna operate tell em use a bazooka They ask me why i wanna kill myself I guess thats cause everyday i dont feel like myself My soul and my emotions are but remnants on a shelf My thoughts so hot i feel like my skulls finna melt I often wonder why i had to hold it down While you went and ****ed around Told me we were safe and sound Took my heart and then you tossed it on the ground x2 Had to lose it all, to find myself Lost my heart and my soul and my health Shut the **** up you dont know what ive felt Yeah ive been on my lonely had to it myself Had to lose it all, to find myself Lost my heart and my soul and my health Shut the **** up you dont know what ive felt Yeah ive been on my lonely had to it myself I know that ive never been the best But if you get one more text from your ex Im catchin a flight to snap his neck Boy stop spittin for aesthetic you just love to play to pretend I ****ing hate you ill let everyone know If we ever cross paths im stickin you in the nose Niggas in his body yeah thats just a Holy Ghost This aint even close too the range that my anger goes Ive been stabbed in the back way too many ****in times Ive been trippin hopin karma comes and has you traumatized And i know all about the sick and sadistic shit you like My shoulders feelin like boulders with these devils and i Had to lose it all, to find myself Lost my heart and my soul and my health Shut the **** up you dont know what ive felt Yeah ive been on my lonely had to it myself Had to lose it all, to find myself Lost my heart and my soul and my health Shut the **** up you dont know what ive felt Yeah ive been on my lonely had to it myself