[00:00.00] 作词 : Mary Lambert
[00:01.00] 作曲 : Mary Lambert
[01:08.00]My mother found a rabid dog
[01:11.21]And wanted to hug it
[01:14.12]Wanted to give it all her glorious honey love
[01:18.00]Wanted to bathe her children in a two-parent household
[01:23.10]But, the dog didn't want kids
[01:26.23]The dog would scream it in the hallway at four A.M
[01:30.10]Reminding us as often as possible
[01:34.83]The sheer art of it
[01:36.73]How the monster could panic into my body
[01:39.96]Sometimes I still hear it in the chambers of my heart
[01:44.39]The way some glorious paintings stay with you
[01:51.07]I am a museum
[01:54.20]I must be a museum
[01:58.03]When I was seven, the dog told me I was going to be a slut
[02:03.06]No one came over to our house to play
[02:06.47]The dog made me write, "I will flush the bathroom toilet seventy-five times"
[02:11.33]I would've remembered to flush the toilet
[02:13.32]But, I started blacking out around then
[02:15.83]Forgetting basic things
[02:17.72]Started praying that Oprah would save us all
[02:20.98]I took snapshots with my memory camera
[02:23.59]Hoping there would be justice for this kind of psycho warfare
[02:32.00]The teachers at the daycare offered apology eyes and extra sequins
[02:36.24]For the art project
[02:37.67]The day after, the dog chased me around each room
[02:41.50]Because I forgot where my other shoe was
[02:59.39]When you are a child
[03:01.22]And your mind is panicked like a fire alarm at all times
[03:05.49]You lose the ability to remember simple things
[03:09.33]I haven't lost a personal item in months
[03:12.75]Do not laugh when I say, 'This is a victory'
[03:17.50]Shame is an ocean I swim across
[03:20.63]Sometimes, I call it drowning
[03:23.02]Sometimes, I call it Moses
[03:25.07]Sometimes, I say, "Good morning!" and sway to its murky surge
[03:28.89]Sometimes, I win and cut off its crest with a pink machete
[03:32.83]Sometimes, I want to **** it and
[03:34.53]Marry it and kill it all at the same time
[03:37.26]Sometimes, I spend my whole day apologizing on shame's behalf
[03:41.07]Sometimes, I think it must be an art form to feel this bad
[03:44.90]Sometimes, I outrun all of its psycho history
[03:50.31]Other times, I repeat the language from my childmouth
[03:55.44]While beating my head against a wall
[04:02.57]But all the time I am forgiven