[ti:to a loyal friend]
[ar:sopor aeternus]
[00:24.85]我爱你叶惠珍
[00:33.87]Once  there  was  a  time,
[00:36.18]when  the  conquest  of
[00:37.43]pain  was  all  that  I
[00:40.14]could  hope  for,had
[00:42.44]been  my  only  aim.
[00:44.74]Happiness  or  joy  merely
[00:47.99]unwords  without  meaning,
[00:50.45]they  were  unwanted
[00:51.90]anyway  as  surely  out  of  place.
[00:56.60]All  I  wanted  was  the
[00:59.31]voices  to  be  silent
[01:01.78]a  brief  moment  in  the
[01:03.48]dark,in  loneliness  and  chill.
[01:07.25]How  I  wished  my  mind
[01:10.11]could  escape  the  camat  dungeon
[01:13.06]that  was  flying  silently
[01:14.86]through  space  while
[01:16.66]I  lay  caged  and  chained  within.
[01:41.76]Today  my  view -strangely
[01:43.48]increased -it  is  beyond  compare,
[01:45.75]but  nothing  became  easier,
[01:49.76]I'm  still  struggling  to  be  free.
[01:53.02]A  thousand  different  things
[01:54.89]dare  to  appear  before  my  eyes
[01:57.84]now,they  come  and  leave
[01:59.64]untouched,because  still  I  cannot  see.
[02:03.70]In  true  darkness  there's
[02:06.96]no  choice  than  do  discover
[02:09.31]the  uselessness  of  eyes,
[02:11.71]giving  birth  from  their  own  despair.
[02:15.16]Here  eyes  can  nothing  but
[02:17.47]decay  and  if  I  fail  and  do
[02:20.57]identify  myself  with  them
[02:23.48]then  their  destiny  I'll  share...
[02:27.35]You  are  with  me  all  the  time -all
[02:29.81]the  time.So  very  unreasonable
[02:33.56]had  been  my  fear.How  could
[02:38.22]I  ever  believe  that  I  might
[02:41.29]be  losing  you  when  forever
[02:43.94]we're  connected  and  you
[02:46.54]are  part  of  me.It's  your
[02:49.60]omnipresence  that  defines
[02:51.25]the  way  in  which  I  do
[02:53.35]exist,forcefully  leading
[02:55.65]me  back  to  where  I  do  belong.
[02:59.15]Opening  my  eyes  to  see
[03:02.56]the  true  essence  of  my
[03:04.41]being,by  dissolving
[03:06.81]the  distractions  of  the
[03:09.61]outer  world.In  the  loneliness
[03:12.66]of  the  pain  you  bring  the
[03:14.66]isolation  of  my  soul  guarantees
[03:17.27]the  maintenance  of  the  only
[03:19.23]thing  that  I  know,my
[03:20.89]natural  and  obvious  differency.
[03:22.16]Beloved  old  friend  and  life-time
[03:24.86]companion  without  you  to
[03:26.76]nothing  I  would  fall.Your
[03:28.99]power  pervades  me  and  lies
[03:30.61]me  low,but  as  the  same  time
[03:32.52]a  new  strenght  is  born  in
[03:33.67]my  soul.
[04:19.63]In  a  universe  of  change
[04:21.03]and  continuous  movement
[04:22.29]I  am  counting  on  you
[04:23.79]since  I  know  you  shall  last.
[04:25.59]Being  my  darkness  and
[04:26.69]the  basis  of  splendor
[04:27.84]light-giving  background
[04:29.45]as  most  fertile  past.You
[04:31.16]trance-formation  source
[04:31.71]of  understanding  you  are
[04:33.96]the  power  that  is  pulling
[04:35.56]me  down.Whenever
[04:36.86]lightness  seeks  to  carry
[04:38.31]me  away  you  connect
[04:40.07]me  safely  to  the  ground.
[04:42.52]You  chill  of  my  winter,
[04:44.83]eternal  Saturn-sphere,
[04:46.18]petrified  and  frozen
[04:48.53]with  a  logic  cold  as  ice
[04:53.03]I  walk  through  the
[04:55.35]world  look  in  surprise
[04:56.36]at  the  living  without
[04:59.41]being  able  to  share
[05:01.81]their  strange  delights.
[05:04.56]Beloved  old  friend,and
[05:08.32]bringer  of  sadness,
[05:10.42]shadow-like  cloak  almost
[05:13.23]matters  so  real,you  slip
[05:16.93]right  through  me  like
[05:18.93]I  was  merely  membrane,
[05:21.83]my  feelings  so  ambivalent
[05:24.59]when  my  wounds  refuse  to  heal...