[00:00.000] 作词 : Benjamin Lasky
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Benjamin Lasky
[00:02.637]I know I got a ego
[00:06.535]Must be something in my brain
[00:11.369]If I didn't, I'd probably go insane
[00:20.456]I'm sorry I'm an asshole
[00:25.290]That's just how the raps go
[00:29.834]Sorry that I do this shit everyday
[00:36.067]What? Yeah, I'm on my ego death (Wavyboy, you ain't got no money)
[00:39.074]I had to reassess, I had to resurrect, yeah
[00:42.807]Huh, hey, huh, I just wanna be the best
[00:45.116]But I had to reassess, is that why I'm feelin' less?
[00:48.331]Yeah, huh, my songs are bipolar like Ye, huh (Huh)
[00:50.619]They think they controllin' my fate, uh (Ooh, yeah)
[00:52.293]Cut all the chatter, no, y'all are not rappers
[00:53.779]You just some ad-libbers like, "Ayy," huh (For real)
[00:55.541]I just pulled up, back in black
[00:57.050]Drop a hit, they react to that (Ooh, huh)
[00:58.639]Now they see this and they actin' mad (Yeah)
[01:00.212]Like I'm Kanye in a MAGA hat, yeah
[01:01.992]I'm so alone, see, I've always been one and only
[01:04.473]Even back when this gold chain was made out of macaroni
[01:07.894]Now they always askin' me what happened to the old me?
[01:10.841]I wish I could've told him "Goodbye", wish he had known me (Yeah)
[01:14.068]Wish that I could tell you 'bout how everyone would know you (Uh-huh)
[01:17.105]And tell you it's worth it, despite everything they told you
[01:20.117]Cryin' silent in your pillow sayin', "I wish I was homeschooled" (Yeah)
[01:23.424]Too afraid to sing your songs because you thought that they would roast you, yeah
[01:27.232]I was nine, friends told me I would go lose (They did)
[01:30.216]Now it's time I think I gotta show you (Yeah, I think it's time, gotta show you)
[01:33.349]That's my mind, say I don't care, but I so do (But I so do)
[01:37.080]Having trouble walkin' up a mile in my own shoes (Shoes)
[01:40.177]Never used to bet on me and now they like, "I owe you" (You)
[01:43.207]Lookin' back at them like, "The ****? I do not know you"
[01:46.357]When I make a milli', mo'****er, I'ma show you
[01:49.540]What I had to go through to feel like I'm supposed to (Ooh, ooh)
[01:52.478]Ego, I don't need no
[01:54.761]Other people in my trio
[01:57.821]Myself, I and me, though, we know
[02:01.012]We don't need no kilos, my watch frío
[02:04.944]Yeah
[02:05.763]I’m on my ego death
[02:07.187]But I let it breathe again, yeah, I let it resurrect, yeah
[02:11.263]Uh, I just wanna be the best
[02:13.489]But I had to reassess, is that why I'm feelin' less? Yeah (Yeah)
[02:17.599]On the way, all okay, only a call away
[02:19.136]Feelin' like a god on my Charlemagne (Huh?)
[02:20.565]I really think they want my presence, like a holiday (Yeah)
[02:22.132]But I think I need to learn when to walk away (I do)
[02:23.701]Man, I got so many problems, but I wanna stay
[02:25.190]Without acknowledgin' how often I have gone astray (Yeah)
[02:26.821]First step is denial, but I'm over that
[02:28.368]And I've accepted it already
[02:29.171]But it holds me back, yeah
[02:30.895]Back, yeah
[02:31.710]Slurrin' my words, I been movin' too fast, yeah
[02:34.020]Fast, yeah (Okay)
[02:34.849]Maybe I don't wanna share it like that, yeah
[02:37.109]That's facts, yeah (Uh)
[02:38.031]I need to stop checking all of the stats
[02:39.869]Like that, like that, yeah, ayy (Yeah, yeah)
[02:43.698]I'm on my ego death
[02:45.280]I had to reassess, I had to resurrect, yeah
[02:49.110]Huh, hey, huh, I just wanna be the best
[02:51.395]But I had to reassess, is that why I'm feelin' less? Yeah
[02:55.626]I got forty-thousand comments this week
[02:57.714]At least five-thousand said that I should kill myself, I'm a freak
[03:00.868]I'm too weak, I'm a leech, and all my music ****in' sucks, I'm a geek
[03:04.128]I'm everythin' they want me to be and that's the problem with me
[03:07.208]So when they say you got a ego, tell 'em, "Thank the ****in' Lord"
[03:10.426]'Cause if you didn't, you'd be sufferin', you'd be stuck there on the floor with nothin' more
[03:14.683]At least I'm out here smilin' in the quicksand
[03:17.005]Take your head out of that pillow, one day, you gon' be the big man, yeah
[03:20.090]In the dark
[03:22.215]I stare into mirrors for hours
[03:30.014]Until I can't recognize myself
[03:38.524]A dissonant reflection
[03:43.935]Both a sober and a sobering hallucination