[00:00.00] 作词 : Dan Haynes/Mark Richard Jr.
[00:01.00] 作曲 : Dan Haynes/Mark Richard Jr.
[00:12.76]I know I need to learn to live with all the things I can't change
[00:15.65]I hate the fact that I feel nothing or I'm reeling in pain
[00:18.64]I need to shake this ****ing habit, so I try, but I can't
[00:21.78]And I look down on other addicts when we're one and the same
[00:24.90]Remember back, I'm pushin' twenty, those were simpler times
[00:27.94]That's when we met,
[00:28.84]And ever since you're never far from my mind
[00:31.02]I broke my ankle playin' ball, and so it's you I'm prescribed
[00:34.16]And even through all of the pain, you make me feel I could fly
[00:37.22]A couple weeks, and now you're gone
[00:39.05]And now I'm feelin' the stress
[00:40.37]I always wanted to feel something, maybe nothing is best
[00:43.41]My friends and family start to question if I'm feelin' depressed
[00:46.52]But I don't really give a damn, just put me back on the meds
[00:49.69]I've been lost in my head
[00:51.19]My homie Jack said he dealt with the same shit
[00:53.80]He said he started drinkin' to deal with the pain quick
[00:56.78]All you need is a fifth and it's cool to remain lit
[00:59.87]So he handed me a bottle, said, "Take about eight sips"
[01:03.09]I'm faded, but I wanna feel straight numb
[01:06.09]So I drink the rest of the bottle, liquor burnin' my gums
[01:09.18]Woke up the next day at around a quarter to one
[01:12.24]My peers would say that "Man I had fun, right?"
[01:15.16]I've been lyin', I've been sayin' I'm fine
[01:18.78]But I've been feeling low and I don't know why
[01:21.64]Another night, I feel empty inside
[01:24.72]Down bottle after bottle of whatever I find
[01:27.88]Feel the weight lift off me
[01:29.75]Someone tell my mom I'm sorry
[01:33.29]I don't wanna lie, I've been losin' my mind
[01:37.14]They tell me "Take a pill" until I feel alright
[01:40.04]The present day been feelin' sick,
[01:41.20]Think I'm just bidin' my time
[01:42.32]I take a shot of somethin' strong to keep that shit off my mind
[01:45.25]All my friends started families and they left you behind
[01:48.30]And here I am drinkin' any can or bottle I find
[01:51.53]My body took you in as blood and so we're never apart
[01:54.53]Some real shit, you the closest someone's been to my heart
[01:57.74]But just like everything I love, you ****in' tear me apart
[02:00.82]Just like everything I love, you ****in' tear me apart
[02:04.08]I wanna be there for my son, daughter, wife—
[02:06.58]I mean my ex-wife now
[02:07.95]I guess that time really flies when you're drunk on the couch
[02:10.96]I wanna shake this ****in' habit, I just don't know how
[02:14.06]So you would love to see me sick until I almost drown
[02:17.27]And so you keep me on the brink of barely livin' and death
[02:20.42]As long as I'm alive, yeah, you know you're gettin' my cheque
[02:23.62]You pray my son and daughter will follow me in my steps
[02:26.69]You'll create our loves a fact
[02:28.39]That I'm broke and broken and in debt
[02:29.99]Can go a day without food, I can't go a day without you
[02:32.64]When I try, I get the shakes 'til my face turns blue
[02:35.84]Lost my job, wife, life for a bottle of booze
[02:38.74]You promised you would make me happy, we know that's not true
[02:41.98]I tried every drug in the book, but they never hit me the same
[02:45.13]I told my doc that I'm down, he put some pills in my name
[02:48.28]It doesn't matter the problem, the fix is always the same
[02:51.35]Always takin' the easy route,
[02:52.78]Like I'm never willin' to change, damn
[02:55.25]Now blamin' everybody but me
[02:57.82]With you inside my system, everybody used to love me
[03:00.75]But now my friends, family, my kids, they can't even trust me
[03:03.97]Been losin' all my control and I let you ****in' become me
[03:07.12]No more! I said no ****in' more!
[03:10.38]I know you think I'm lyin', I said this to you before
[03:13.18]This time I'm ****in' ready, it's time to show you the door
[03:16.27]This life is mine, it never was yours!
[03:19.47]I've been lyin', I've been sayin' I'm fine
[03:22.63]But I've been feelin' low and I don't know why
[03:25.56]Another night, I feel empty inside
[03:28.63]Down bottle after bottle of whatever I find
[03:31.82]Feel the weight lift off me
[03:34.08]Someone tell my mom I'm sorry
[03:37.05]I don't wanna lie, I've been losin' my mind
[03:41.09]They tell me "Take a pill" until I feel alright
[03:45.55]