[00:24.62]An ordinary cat from outer projects
[00:26.82]Since I was younger though
[00:28.20]Mom raised her children
[00:29.12]Pops dipped a long time ago
[00:31.09]In my mind I see flashbacks
[00:32.79]I had no fancy clothes
[00:34.12]Skinny ugly knotty head nigga
[00:35.75]Crying with a snotty nose
[00:37.33]Even though my father neglect
[00:38.78]He pay the child support
[00:40.15]Hadn't seen him all these years
[00:41.81]I hug his ass in court
[00:43.15]Always saying I'm coming to get you
[00:44.63]And I be waiting too
[00:46.05]Holiday and birthday presents
[00:47.75]Was never coming through
[00:49.07]Remember at the age 13
[00:50.68]I started smoking weed
[00:52.02]Hanging out with cats that was older
[00:53.85]Start to run the street
[00:55.14]Dropped out of high school
[00:56.35]Selling drugs impressing chicks
[00:58.01]Spent most my cheddar on gear
[00:59.83]My man was buying whips
[01:01.10]New York Jamaican Miami niggaz
[01:02.57]Flooded Virginia quick
[01:03.96]Cause signing work only if buying
[01:05.70]Prices was high as shit
[01:07.26]Remember when I first got hit
[01:08.67]I seen the iron spit
[01:10.10]50 cash bent in one corner bleeding
[01:12.07]Where pellet hit
[01:13.03]My man shawn
[01:13.86]He held on strong
[01:15.00]Slug burn through his lower back side
[01:17.01]Crack his spine exit his arm
[01:18.61]Lost him twice on the hospital table
[01:20.58]And when he died I cried my eyes out
[01:22.83]I couldn't take it damn damn
[01:24.66]But the same things continued to happen
[01:26.68]Niggaz got bust
[01:27.70]I'm a kid with a grown man's mind turning corrupt
[01:30.67]Playing innocent in front of my elders
[01:32.89]I was running with them cats that be robbing too
[01:35.56]I couldn't tell them
[01:36.71]If my name was up in any type trouble
[01:38.78]My moms would tell me
[01:39.92]Just like you brothers into some shit
[01:41.68]Go get a job or something
[01:43.12]Just a little bum on the street
[01:44.70]Not working hard for nothing
[01:45.96]Scratch I made when I was pumping
[01:47.75]I'm here to offer something
[01:48.96]Making sure the crib stay tight
[01:50.59]For real I wasn't no dummy
[01:52.08]Tell me where you getting this money
[01:53.71]I wash a car be lying
[01:55.07]Saying anything sides drugs selling
[01:57.04]My sister seen me on the block
[01:58.68]Transact with fiends
[01:59.55]Be saying I'm tell it
[02:00.99]Growing up was hell no doubt
[02:02.77]I wonder where was heaven
[02:24.67]Now I'm a grown man
[02:25.79]Still it's like life dealt me the wrong hand
[02:27.95]Cat's that was my man be fronting
[02:29.69]Or either found dead
[02:30.90]Sound said incarcerated just turned a new Dad
[02:33.94]Remembering them long ten months
[02:35.13]
[02:35.67]From slinging crack bags
[02:37.01]Mom put me out with the quickness
[02:38.72]Carry your black ass
[02:39.85]I'm still coming back to the crib
[02:41.61]Oh so you back yeah
[02:42.96]May I just came to holler to see how you doing
[02:45.75]Nothings changed after all these years
[02:47.78]Still hustle for some gear smoke weed
[02:50.47]Still drink beers
[02:51.49]I tell you from my heart
[02:52.89]Yo times I'm like yeah
[02:54.61]I wonder if heaven was a place in this planet
[02:56.81]Youd find me right there