[00:00.12]Once she was a mystery of life.
[00:06.40]Now she is skyping with her friend
[00:11.39]They are both childless.
[00:14.75]It rings a hollow tone: childless.
[00:19.86]No longer a mystery of life.
[00:23.53]Just less. She found stretch mark cream in an Airbnb bathroom.
[00:35.14]It was just cream. Rubbing it on her belly, she felt nothing
[00:47.96]I was just an accident
[00:52.97]I was just an accident
[00:59.14]I was just an accident, even to myself
[01:11.84]She is curious about crying *******.
[01:18.05]To her friend she finds herself saying:
[01:21.88]I wonder how I have managed to avoid conceiving,
[01:30.42]You know, by accident.
[01:35.41]So many years. So little fruit.
[01:40.87]You know, maybe I would have just kept it.
[01:45.64]"Probably I can't even do it", she says
[01:51.33]She eats dried figs from a container
[01:57.44]I was an accident
[02:03.41]I was just an accident
[02:09.68]Once I was an accident, and a mystery of life
[02:17.53]Once I made people believe in miracles, or God, or love
[02:27.19]I was the hour of the star, I was the hour of the star
[02:32.34]I moved like a jellyfish
[02:35.15]I smelled of nothing
[02:38.21]She was told she was the closest her mother came to magic.
[02:50.07]She is made for other things.
[02:55.69]Born for cubist yearnings. Born to write. Born to burn
[03:07.24]She is an accident (She is an accident)
[03:13.69]She is an accident (Flesh in dissent)
[03:20.09]She is an accident
[03:24.91]A curious androgyne
[03:30.63]She is an accident (She is an accident)
[03:36.43]Flesh in dissent
[03:41.72]Flesh in dissent
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