Everything makes me nervous
And nothing feels good for no reason
Waking up, it's rarely worth it
The same dark dread every morning
Senior year here in Mahwah
A new world just around the corner
Leave me behind, let me stagnate,
In a fortress of solitude
Smoking's been okay so far,
But I need something that works faster
So all I want for Christmas is no feelings
No feelings now
And never again
There is a faceplate all brown and red
that stretches across my mouth
It's worn for protection,
Nobody gets in and nobody gets out
I used to look myself in the mirror
At the end of every day
But I took the one thing that made me beautiful
And threw it away
I was a river, I was a tall tree, I was a volcano
But now I'm asleep on top of a mountain
I've been covered in snow
Yes, I have surrendered what made me human
And all that I thought was true
So now there's a robot that lives in my brain
And he tells me what to do
And I can do nothing without his permission
Or (which) wasn't part of the plan
So now in Rock Ridge pharmacy
I will be waiting for my man
But there is another down in a dungeon
who never gave up the fight
And he'll be forever screaming,
Sometimes I hear him say, on a quiet night,
he says
You will always be a loser
You will always be a loser
You will always be a loser
You'll always be a loser now
You will always be a loser
You will always be a loser
You will always be a loser
And that's okay.